suddenly had a whole new meaning . . . at least for me.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. I’m fine. No, I’m better than fine, I’m great.” I smiled and for the first time in a while I felt truly happy. “You want to see if mom will let us order pizza?”
“Sure.” She looked confused but she didn’t press me, just let it go.
Mom didn’t mind so we ordered a margarita pizza and a white pizza from our favorite Italian restaurant. While we were waiting dad called from his business trip to check on us and say that he missed us but then the pizza arrived and he had to go.
As I ate I thought about everything, the ring that was hiding in my pocket, all the things that Aiden had said, the little one I had inside me, what would happen, and then I suddenly knew how to tell them everything. I knew that I wanted this more than anything in the world and that they wouldn’t mess with that, I knew Aiden would be there with me no matter what, and I knew that everything, for once in my life, would be okay.
The rest of the night went by in a blur of movies, food, and talk. We talked about everything from A to Z and back again at least twice. We thought of a few names for the baby but I already knew what I would call him. We talked for what seemed like endless hours. I don’t know when I finally fell asleep but when I did my dreams were of a tiny, weak form in Aiden’s big, strong arms as he held me close. I woke up knowing exactly what I would call my baby boy. I didn’t tell Nikki. I decided to keep it to myself until I talked to Aiden again. I prayed that he would like it just as much as I did. Heaven. My tiny little Heaven. No, our tiny little Heaven.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. I’m fine. No, I’m better than fine, I’m great.” I smiled and for the first time in a while I felt truly happy. “You want to see if mom will let us order pizza?”
“Sure.” She looked confused but she didn’t press me, just let it go.
Mom didn’t mind so we ordered a margarita pizza and a white pizza from our favorite Italian restaurant. While we were waiting dad called from his business trip to check on us and say that he missed us but then the pizza arrived and he had to go.
As I ate I thought about everything, the ring that was hiding in my pocket, all the things that Aiden had said, the little one I had inside me, what would happen, and then I suddenly knew how to tell them everything. I knew that I wanted this more than anything in the world and that they wouldn’t mess with that, I knew Aiden would be there with me no matter what, and I knew that everything, for once in my life, would be okay.
The rest of the night went by in a blur of movies, food, and talk. We talked about everything from A to Z and back again at least twice. We thought of a few names for the baby but I already knew what I would call him. We talked for what seemed like endless hours. I don’t know when I finally fell asleep but when I did my dreams were of a tiny, weak form in Aiden’s big, strong arms as he held me close. I woke up knowing exactly what I would call my baby boy. I didn’t tell Nikki. I decided to keep it to myself until I talked to Aiden again. I prayed that he would like it just as much as I did. Heaven. My tiny little Heaven. No, our tiny little Heaven.
