want to hear it. You didn’t want me to be with him and there wasn’t any argument against it. Did you even have a reason or was it just out of spite?”
“I did it to protect you.”
“So he’s dangerous?”
“He almost killed you!”
“I almost killed him too! . . .Or did you forget that?”
“Of course I didn’t forget.”
“So what was the real reason? He never hurt me before this.”
“I was scared.”
“Scared of what, mom?”
“Losing you.”
“I wasn’t going anywhere.”
“You tried to kill yourself.”
“Because you tried to take him away! I was happy with him and you weren’t listening. I wouldn’t have done this if you would have listened to me.”
“I’m sorry. I just thought…I guess you know what I thought.”
“Mom, he loves me and he wants me happy. He wasn’t going to take me away from my family, or my friends.”
“That’s a little hard to believe now.”
“He did this,” I showed the bandages. “Because I wasn’t happy and it was what I wanted.”
“This…this made you happy?”
“It was the only way that I knew you could never take me away from him.” I laughed half-heartedly and said, “And that didn’t even work.”
“Yes it did.”
“I’m still alive.”
“And now I’m awake. I see how much he means to you. And after talking to him, I know how much you mean to him.”
“So what happens now?”
“We go back to the way things were except for a few things.”
“And they are?”
She was quiet for a minute, putting the words together in her mind. “I want you and him to hang around us a little more or at least around the house.” She looked like she was scared of what I would say, of what I would do, of me.
“Is that all?”
“Can you not stay at his house as much?”
“Of course.
“I did it to protect you.”
“So he’s dangerous?”
“He almost killed you!”
“I almost killed him too! . . .Or did you forget that?”
“Of course I didn’t forget.”
“So what was the real reason? He never hurt me before this.”
“I was scared.”
“Scared of what, mom?”
“Losing you.”
“I wasn’t going anywhere.”
“You tried to kill yourself.”
“Because you tried to take him away! I was happy with him and you weren’t listening. I wouldn’t have done this if you would have listened to me.”
“I’m sorry. I just thought…I guess you know what I thought.”
“Mom, he loves me and he wants me happy. He wasn’t going to take me away from my family, or my friends.”
“That’s a little hard to believe now.”
“He did this,” I showed the bandages. “Because I wasn’t happy and it was what I wanted.”
“This…this made you happy?”
“It was the only way that I knew you could never take me away from him.” I laughed half-heartedly and said, “And that didn’t even work.”
“Yes it did.”
“I’m still alive.”
“And now I’m awake. I see how much he means to you. And after talking to him, I know how much you mean to him.”
“So what happens now?”
“We go back to the way things were except for a few things.”
“And they are?”
She was quiet for a minute, putting the words together in her mind. “I want you and him to hang around us a little more or at least around the house.” She looked like she was scared of what I would say, of what I would do, of me.
“Is that all?”
“Can you not stay at his house as much?”
“Of course.
