"Oh! I’m sorry honey! Your brotha left afta your little spat with him." When I don’t respond she gives me a knowing look and says "I knew ya could talk. When your brotha told me that ya couldn’t talk I knew it was because ya chose not ta, for what reason I have no idea. But ya know that boy loves ya very much. I bet he’ll forgive ya when ya see him next. Tomorrow you are going to be moved to the mental ward ya know that right?" I nod my head and look for the notebook that I know Charlie left for me to communicate to Ugly Nurse Lady. No way was I going to talk to her again. Well at least not on purpose.
Has my mother been in to see me? I write.
"Why yes she did, yestaday. I guess ya wouldn’t remember ‘cause you were sleepin in all. She brought your brotha some new clothes, but then she left real quickly sayin something about needin ta get back ta work" Ugly Nurse Lady says. I knew that that would happen. Actually I’m surprised she even did that. Charlie probably called her at work and begged her to come.
Thanks.
"You’re sure welcome. If ya need anything honey, just buzz me" Ugly Nurse Lady says. I nod my head and she leaves. Ugly Nurse Lady is right about Charlie. He loves me and he’ll forgive me. No matter how many times I hurt him by doing drugs, cutting myself or just plain scream at him, he still tells me that he loves me and forgives me. I always tell him that it is a waste of his breath and energy. I tell him that he should just forget about me but he just says that he’s not a forgetful person. I know that he’ll never give up on me, even after today because he knows I have no one else. Ever since dad died three years ago mom has basically devoted her life to her job and leaves me alone all day. He knows about my relationship with Dominic and the drugs he gives me but not about the beatings. And he’s still there for me. Charlie should be going to some college across the country but he’s going to a community one just to stay close to me so that I won’t have to be alone. Now that I am thinking about it my life would have ended much sooner if he was not here for me all of the time.
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Has my mother been in to see me? I write.
"Why yes she did, yestaday. I guess ya wouldn’t remember ‘cause you were sleepin in all. She brought your brotha some new clothes, but then she left real quickly sayin something about needin ta get back ta work" Ugly Nurse Lady says. I knew that that would happen. Actually I’m surprised she even did that. Charlie probably called her at work and begged her to come.
Thanks.
"You’re sure welcome. If ya need anything honey, just buzz me" Ugly Nurse Lady says. I nod my head and she leaves. Ugly Nurse Lady is right about Charlie. He loves me and he’ll forgive me. No matter how many times I hurt him by doing drugs, cutting myself or just plain scream at him, he still tells me that he loves me and forgives me. I always tell him that it is a waste of his breath and energy. I tell him that he should just forget about me but he just says that he’s not a forgetful person. I know that he’ll never give up on me, even after today because he knows I have no one else. Ever since dad died three years ago mom has basically devoted her life to her job and leaves me alone all day. He knows about my relationship with Dominic and the drugs he gives me but not about the beatings. And he’s still there for me. Charlie should be going to some college across the country but he’s going to a community one just to stay close to me so that I won’t have to be alone. Now that I am thinking about it my life would have ended much sooner if he was not here for me all of the time.
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