The reason why I'm writing all this. The reason why, I'm questioning things that I've taken for granted before.

Before...

It seems like our lives are always shaped by Before's and After's.

But it's just a matter of what happens to separate our lives into two entirely separate entities.

Today, it feels like somebody threw a cold bucket of water on my face and yelled into my ears

"Wake up, you Fucker!"

I realized, that times are a'changin' I can't be young and naive forever. Wishing upon my stars, and seeing what I want to see, not the truth.

Not in this world.

I've lived somewhat of a fairy tale childhood that I'm sure many has dreamed of.

I had two 'very in-love' parents, one annoying bigger brother who I can count on for anything. One paranoid happy dog, living in this beautiful home in central Florida.

I bring home great grades, grades that qualify to be put on the top of the refrigerator. Amazing friends that I love deeply.

But there's always more to the picture than you think. There's always another side of the coin.

We human beings are flawed. So nothing can EVER be picture perfect. or close to it for long.

I mean, don't get me wrong, we worked hard to get this lifestyle. But that's another story.