I look at the girl that is facing me in the mirror. I dont recognise her one bit. I almost actually feel sorry for myself, sorry that i am actually in this situation. My hair is all mangled and raty. I run my fingers through it but they just get stuck in the knots. My face only has one black eye (thankfully) and my lip is a little puffy. My arms look like i was attacked by a kindergardener with blue and purple markers, I am now polka dotted everywhere. I painstakingly unrap my arms from my abdomen. My ribs are all purple and my whole belly area is twice its normal size. I poke one of my broken ribs. OH MY .... "AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" i dobble over crying in pain. I can here Charlie bounding up the stairs to assest me in any way that i need.
"what is it? whats wrong?" hes pounding on my door "let me in!"
I dont answer him. i couldnt even if i wanted to, which i dont. But i just stand there taking the pain. Poking my self there over and over, punishing myself for the awful things i have done to charlie. Take it Lucy! Take the pain you deserve! I tell myself that over and over again. Tears rolling down my face but i just cant stop punishing myself. My vision goes blury and i feel myself kneel to the ground.
"What are you doing!" Charlie got in my room "stop it!" he sounds horrified and he tryies to pull away my arm from hitting my broken ribs. I cant stop. "Luce look at me! LOOK AT ME!" He takes his hands and moves my head up to his. My eyes make contact with his. "please lucy you need to stop now." I stop. I am mezmorized by his eyes. I can sleep now.