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These past few days have been terrible. Its what i call a living nightmare. After what Charlie calls "Lucy's mental break down" happened he has had me on this stupid lock down system where he has to be with me at all times and if he is not with me he has to know where i am and what i am doing. At least it is only till he leaves. He even has to stand outside of the bathroom door to make sure i am not secretly hurting myself. But what i really need are some drugs, and i need them bad. Everything hurts, my whole body is just crying out for some sort of relief and i know that my drugs will help with that. Maybe i can sneek away from Charlie for just a little while to go see Dominic. Charlie is going to the grocry store in a little bit so maybe just maybe i can convince him to let me stay home so that i can escape to Dominic's place. Just thinking of drugs make me want to--
"What are you doing in here?" I turn around from my window and see charlie standing in the middle of my room looking at me like i have broken one of the golden rules. Which acording to him i probably did.
"ummm standing here...in MY room. Is that a problem for you?" I say to him. Ugg cant this "punishment" just stop. "Im not a little girl charlie i can be in my room by myself if i want to be" He stares at me. I know that he is thinking weather or not he can trust me; which should be a big fat no but i actually think he is going to agree with me.
"Ok well then you can prove it to me. I am going to the store this afternoon to get some food an di am going to let you stay here at the house all by yourself and if i find anything out of place when i come back then you can say good by to everything cause i will tell mom everything that has been going on that she doesnt know about. I am totally serious i am not afraid to tell her" Haha i knew it but i know that he is serioius about telling mom everything. Hmmm should i chance it.
"How long will you be gone?" I ask him. He takes a mintue to figure it out
"Um i dont think i am going to tell you just so your not tempted" Wow he's a smart one, no wonder he's going to college.
"ok then when are you going?"
" In about 20 minutes" with that he left my room to leave me with my thoughts. Oh how he tries to protect my inocenec. But it doesnt work cause he doesnt control my life, he's not my father no matter how hard he tries to be.
These past few days have been terrible. Its what i call a living nightmare. After what Charlie calls "Lucy's mental break down" happened he has had me on this stupid lock down system where he has to be with me at all times and if he is not with me he has to know where i am and what i am doing. At least it is only till he leaves. He even has to stand outside of the bathroom door to make sure i am not secretly hurting myself. But what i really need are some drugs, and i need them bad. Everything hurts, my whole body is just crying out for some sort of relief and i know that my drugs will help with that. Maybe i can sneek away from Charlie for just a little while to go see Dominic. Charlie is going to the grocry store in a little bit so maybe just maybe i can convince him to let me stay home so that i can escape to Dominic's place. Just thinking of drugs make me want to--
"What are you doing in here?" I turn around from my window and see charlie standing in the middle of my room looking at me like i have broken one of the golden rules. Which acording to him i probably did.
"ummm standing here...in MY room. Is that a problem for you?" I say to him. Ugg cant this "punishment" just stop. "Im not a little girl charlie i can be in my room by myself if i want to be" He stares at me. I know that he is thinking weather or not he can trust me; which should be a big fat no but i actually think he is going to agree with me.
"Ok well then you can prove it to me. I am going to the store this afternoon to get some food an di am going to let you stay here at the house all by yourself and if i find anything out of place when i come back then you can say good by to everything cause i will tell mom everything that has been going on that she doesnt know about. I am totally serious i am not afraid to tell her" Haha i knew it but i know that he is serioius about telling mom everything. Hmmm should i chance it.
"How long will you be gone?" I ask him. He takes a mintue to figure it out
"Um i dont think i am going to tell you just so your not tempted" Wow he's a smart one, no wonder he's going to college.
"ok then when are you going?"
" In about 20 minutes" with that he left my room to leave me with my thoughts. Oh how he tries to protect my inocenec. But it doesnt work cause he doesnt control my life, he's not my father no matter how hard he tries to be.
