I'm in with the exception of one but I won't go into that. I feel like I really have something here. Life has shined a bright and warm light on me. It's an opportunity my father took and it really paid off. I'm still a little miffed at the fact that I'm existing in the United States and not overseas where I believe I belong, but right now, there's no way I can regret all the things I've done here. I feel like I've done so much in the small amount of time I've been here. I've brought my best friend and her current boyfriend together. I've made friends in places I never thought I could. I've made it to a point in my life where I've realized how much life is worth to me.
My brother and I used to talk about suicide all the time. When the parents had made us angry for any reason we always threatened to kill ourselves to one another, and as usual we always stopped each other. I miss him, but not as dramatically as before. When he gets back, I'm going to show him the wonders of Katamari.
I don't know how long I can keep up with this specific journal entry, but I'm getting a little distracted. I'll come back later. If not, well then, good night.
Friday October 15, 2010:
So, I know I haven't been keeping up well with this little documentation of my last year. I've had so much going on lately. My brother came home two days ago for a little break after Mid-terms and I can't even explain how happy I've been. It's been so nice having him home that I don't want him to go. My other half is here and now we're whole again. He brought home a few games from his college life and gave them to me. I realy have missed him. The other day, I was throwing pillows at him, and he was throwing them back, but not as hard as he used to. I'm glad that he's actually feeling how strong he is and not attacking me with his super strength or something. I know that he's been working out since his school started and I noticed that he looks a little bit more buff than he was earlier.
Some of the other stuff that was going on this week was the spirit week stuff. First day was class colors day and seniors had to wear pink. I can't even look at the color without feeling like my eyes are going to explode in their sockets. Wearing it was like wearing acid, I swore I could feel my skin burn. The second day was twin day that replaced nerd day because some mother described her son as not needing to dress up for nerd day. I thought it was a load of crap. They shouldn't take away a spirit day on the last moment because of some stupid complaint. My friend and I dressed up in nerdy video game stuff. It was cool. But the real fun didn't start until the next day.
My brother and I used to talk about suicide all the time. When the parents had made us angry for any reason we always threatened to kill ourselves to one another, and as usual we always stopped each other. I miss him, but not as dramatically as before. When he gets back, I'm going to show him the wonders of Katamari.
I don't know how long I can keep up with this specific journal entry, but I'm getting a little distracted. I'll come back later. If not, well then, good night.
Friday October 15, 2010:
So, I know I haven't been keeping up well with this little documentation of my last year. I've had so much going on lately. My brother came home two days ago for a little break after Mid-terms and I can't even explain how happy I've been. It's been so nice having him home that I don't want him to go. My other half is here and now we're whole again. He brought home a few games from his college life and gave them to me. I realy have missed him. The other day, I was throwing pillows at him, and he was throwing them back, but not as hard as he used to. I'm glad that he's actually feeling how strong he is and not attacking me with his super strength or something. I know that he's been working out since his school started and I noticed that he looks a little bit more buff than he was earlier.
Some of the other stuff that was going on this week was the spirit week stuff. First day was class colors day and seniors had to wear pink. I can't even look at the color without feeling like my eyes are going to explode in their sockets. Wearing it was like wearing acid, I swore I could feel my skin burn. The second day was twin day that replaced nerd day because some mother described her son as not needing to dress up for nerd day. I thought it was a load of crap. They shouldn't take away a spirit day on the last moment because of some stupid complaint. My friend and I dressed up in nerdy video game stuff. It was cool. But the real fun didn't start until the next day.
