them more. Well, not all of that's true, but for the most part yes. Going back to what I was talking about. I told him that I would be really depressed while he was gone for another week and a half because he wouldn't be here. And every time he goes again, I'm going to be depressed for a while because I feel numb without him. I felt like I couldn't sleep last night and ended up taking a nap when I got home. It lasted all of twenty minutes because I had cats sleeping on me.
But, yeah, I really do miss him. I was on the verge of crying as I looked back to him from my spot in my dads' car. He was sitting in his car fixing everything to his liking before he started it and left the parking lot of the McDonald's. I never saw him leave the parking lot, I'm just imagining it. I got home today and I wanted to cry. Just let it all out and scream to the world how cruel it was. I haven't had a good cry in a long time.
I haven't had a good cry for him leaving for college yet. It still hasn't dawned on me that he's not coming home for good any time soon. It makes me want to break down and cry.
My heart is missing it's other half. We cannot be the dynamic duo when we are separated. I feel it now, the empty pain that fills my chest whenever I get really depressed. Oh, how my heart aches.
There's the drama for you. The poetic and dramatic drama.
Now I have to go to bed because I have tons of crap to get done tomorrow for school. G'night.
Ended at 8:52 P.M.
Tuesday. November 30, 2010. 8:44 P.M.:
Today was a great day for me. I got to school, talked with my best friend in the lunchroom before school started. I had hardly anything to do in Government, so, when I finished I simply wrote down a few things that I needed to do for that awesome book I'm writing. I already have a chapter done! Can you believe that?! I was so excited that I had to get on and type about it. Anyway, I went to my next class and didn't have anything done for it because I was spending time with my family over Thanksgiving break. Isn't that what it's for? Spending time with family? So I told myself I wouldn't do any work and I didn't. So I told my art teacher some of the story because he doesn't like excuses, but I made it up when I asked him questions about my project.
Now that I know that the background for my foot study doesn't really need to be a background, I can just draw my feet and be done with it. I think that I'm only going to draw two feet. I don't want to draw more than two at this point. I know it's a study but I can do more of the studying later when I get into college. So, I got my paper nice and prepared and all I have to
But, yeah, I really do miss him. I was on the verge of crying as I looked back to him from my spot in my dads' car. He was sitting in his car fixing everything to his liking before he started it and left the parking lot of the McDonald's. I never saw him leave the parking lot, I'm just imagining it. I got home today and I wanted to cry. Just let it all out and scream to the world how cruel it was. I haven't had a good cry in a long time.
I haven't had a good cry for him leaving for college yet. It still hasn't dawned on me that he's not coming home for good any time soon. It makes me want to break down and cry.
My heart is missing it's other half. We cannot be the dynamic duo when we are separated. I feel it now, the empty pain that fills my chest whenever I get really depressed. Oh, how my heart aches.
There's the drama for you. The poetic and dramatic drama.
Now I have to go to bed because I have tons of crap to get done tomorrow for school. G'night.
Ended at 8:52 P.M.
Tuesday. November 30, 2010. 8:44 P.M.:
Today was a great day for me. I got to school, talked with my best friend in the lunchroom before school started. I had hardly anything to do in Government, so, when I finished I simply wrote down a few things that I needed to do for that awesome book I'm writing. I already have a chapter done! Can you believe that?! I was so excited that I had to get on and type about it. Anyway, I went to my next class and didn't have anything done for it because I was spending time with my family over Thanksgiving break. Isn't that what it's for? Spending time with family? So I told myself I wouldn't do any work and I didn't. So I told my art teacher some of the story because he doesn't like excuses, but I made it up when I asked him questions about my project.
Now that I know that the background for my foot study doesn't really need to be a background, I can just draw my feet and be done with it. I think that I'm only going to draw two feet. I don't want to draw more than two at this point. I know it's a study but I can do more of the studying later when I get into college. So, I got my paper nice and prepared and all I have to
