Sunday November 7, 2010. 8:34 P.M.:
My weekend was excellent. I spent it all at my friend's house. We cleaned out her room to get ready to paint it, and then we painted some of it before I had to go. I'm so busy lately that I don't even have time to spend with my parents. It's really depressing. I told my mom the other day that I wish we had a weekend with just the two of us doing stuff we normally don't have time to do, like get our hair cuts, do facials, and maybe paint our toes. Then I realized, I need a whole year to spend with my dad.
He spent a whole year in Iraq, and that's a whole year that the two of us missed. It's time that won't come back and it makes me angry that it has to be that way. Even like six years later, I still find myself discovering new things about him. It's like he and my mom didn't meet until last year which isn't true. I just wish that I had enough time in a day to just chill with him. I don't know how my brother feels on that matter but it's really unnerving when you don't even know your own father.
I love him a lot, and I feel very attached to him but it's awkward talking because I feel like I don't know him. I just really want to get my old life back from before he left to fight a war. This new chapter, is turning out to be a sad one.
Onto more happy matters, my brother is coming back sometime in December. That and he's going to our grandparents house for Turkey day. That means I get to spend a lot of time with him. I would spend five minutes hugging him if time allowed. I want to play the Xbox with him so bad that I want to bang my head against the wall. It doesn't sound fun and that's how I feel.
Jeeze, my throat itches from wiping Spackle dust off of my friend's wall all day. I can't stand dust of any kind. It makes me sneeze.
So, my bare walls finally have some form of decoration. I have a poster of my favorite cartoon, Fullmetal Alchemist, hanging up on my wall. My friend gave it to me when we were cleaning out her room.
Well, I have work to finish before I go to bed.
Ended at 8:57 P.M.
Tuesday November 9, 2010. 9:33 A.M.:
I felt really crappy last night. I had physical therapy to go to for my knees but my chest was hurting really bad. At one point I was laying down on the floor because I just couldn't stand up. It felt like someone was stepping on my chest, and sometimes the pressure made it hurt. I don't know what it is but it's bothering me. My mom said that the next time we can get an appointment we'd get that checked out. My knees feel fine though.
I guess I just have problems. Right now I feel the same chest pain as yesterday. It's not quite as bad but it's enough to make me feel uncomfortable.
My weekend was excellent. I spent it all at my friend's house. We cleaned out her room to get ready to paint it, and then we painted some of it before I had to go. I'm so busy lately that I don't even have time to spend with my parents. It's really depressing. I told my mom the other day that I wish we had a weekend with just the two of us doing stuff we normally don't have time to do, like get our hair cuts, do facials, and maybe paint our toes. Then I realized, I need a whole year to spend with my dad.
He spent a whole year in Iraq, and that's a whole year that the two of us missed. It's time that won't come back and it makes me angry that it has to be that way. Even like six years later, I still find myself discovering new things about him. It's like he and my mom didn't meet until last year which isn't true. I just wish that I had enough time in a day to just chill with him. I don't know how my brother feels on that matter but it's really unnerving when you don't even know your own father.
I love him a lot, and I feel very attached to him but it's awkward talking because I feel like I don't know him. I just really want to get my old life back from before he left to fight a war. This new chapter, is turning out to be a sad one.
Onto more happy matters, my brother is coming back sometime in December. That and he's going to our grandparents house for Turkey day. That means I get to spend a lot of time with him. I would spend five minutes hugging him if time allowed. I want to play the Xbox with him so bad that I want to bang my head against the wall. It doesn't sound fun and that's how I feel.
Jeeze, my throat itches from wiping Spackle dust off of my friend's wall all day. I can't stand dust of any kind. It makes me sneeze.
So, my bare walls finally have some form of decoration. I have a poster of my favorite cartoon, Fullmetal Alchemist, hanging up on my wall. My friend gave it to me when we were cleaning out her room.
Well, I have work to finish before I go to bed.
Ended at 8:57 P.M.
Tuesday November 9, 2010. 9:33 A.M.:
I felt really crappy last night. I had physical therapy to go to for my knees but my chest was hurting really bad. At one point I was laying down on the floor because I just couldn't stand up. It felt like someone was stepping on my chest, and sometimes the pressure made it hurt. I don't know what it is but it's bothering me. My mom said that the next time we can get an appointment we'd get that checked out. My knees feel fine though.
I guess I just have problems. Right now I feel the same chest pain as yesterday. It's not quite as bad but it's enough to make me feel uncomfortable.
