Do you ever get that feeling where you just want to run away from everything and start over? That's me right now. I want college to start right now. I want to escape my current life. I want to meet people I don't know and be able to talk about random shit knowing that they have nothing to hurt you with simply because they don't know you. Sad truth, I know, but I probably learn the most about myself in that situation.
It is so frustrating dealing with the same people every day. Especially when it's your friends that you're frustrated with. I feel like a terrible person for being tired of my friends. If I'm so sick of them, why are we even friends? Why do I even try? Am I that bad of a friend that I just want to leave everyone? What kind of person thinks like that?
Apparently I do. Maybe I'm just messed up.
On another note, do you ever get that horrible feeling when you think about someone nonstop and you realize that they probably hardly ever think about you? To me, that's gotta be one of the worst feelings ever. Very possible that it's in my top 10 worst feelings.
And since I'm a hormonal teenage girl, I have to return to boys once again. Like always. I apologize; I must be so dull to you.
I've been talking with some people and I think the reason I'm stressing out so much about this guy is because I'm trying to manipulate the relationship and I'm not getting the results I want. And I keep trying and trying, pushing and pushing, not letting things just flow. So I've decided to just stop. If he wants to come to me, he will. I can't force this relationship to move. It's not a one man job. It takes two people to make it work.
So I'm swearing this to myself and to all you readers. Hold me to it please.
I need to stop this stress and worrying. It's unhealthy.
Like a bad drug that I keep injecting into the same spot on my arm.
I've got the scars to prove it.
It is so frustrating dealing with the same people every day. Especially when it's your friends that you're frustrated with. I feel like a terrible person for being tired of my friends. If I'm so sick of them, why are we even friends? Why do I even try? Am I that bad of a friend that I just want to leave everyone? What kind of person thinks like that?
Apparently I do. Maybe I'm just messed up.
On another note, do you ever get that horrible feeling when you think about someone nonstop and you realize that they probably hardly ever think about you? To me, that's gotta be one of the worst feelings ever. Very possible that it's in my top 10 worst feelings.
And since I'm a hormonal teenage girl, I have to return to boys once again. Like always. I apologize; I must be so dull to you.
I've been talking with some people and I think the reason I'm stressing out so much about this guy is because I'm trying to manipulate the relationship and I'm not getting the results I want. And I keep trying and trying, pushing and pushing, not letting things just flow. So I've decided to just stop. If he wants to come to me, he will. I can't force this relationship to move. It's not a one man job. It takes two people to make it work.
So I'm swearing this to myself and to all you readers. Hold me to it please.
I need to stop this stress and worrying. It's unhealthy.
Like a bad drug that I keep injecting into the same spot on my arm.
I've got the scars to prove it.
