Dear Mom and Dad: please lock the doors next time. Thanks. From, your forever scarred daughter.
Wow. This day is all kinds of awful.
I walked in on my parents going at it at 6:50 AM in the fucking morning. Like, what the fuck? Really? How do you even have enough energy to do that? Fucking nasty.
So I got to school in an awkward mood.
To make matters worse, I saw him at least 6 times today.
First, at break when I was walking to see a friend.
Second, on the way back to fourth period after break ended.
Third, on the way to lunch after fourth period ended.
Fourth, I was working down at the media center with my group (Calvin, Nate, and Dyllon). I was sure I wouldn't see him there. I went to see the librarian and ask for some tape, and guess who I see walking down the ramp? Yeah, him. We make more awkward eye contact. I follow him back down to my table, the whole time hoping he won't go to talk to Calvin (I realize that they're good friends as I'm walking behind him.) And of course, he walks right up to Calvin and high fives him or something and then proceeds to sit at MY (excuse me, my group's) table. I walked around him (he still didn't see me aside from when I was getting tape) and ended up diagonal/across from him. Again, more awkward eye contact, a slight incline of the head to acknowledge each other. I talked to him a little later about what he was working on (english). And that's it. So weird. Who would've thought he'd be THERE of all places? I mean, COME ON. Give me a break!
Fifth, on my way down the ramp after sixth period to get my track bag.
Sixth, outside of the girl's locker room, by the entrance to the track, while I was talking on the phone and talking to someone in person. I actually said "hey". And I'm not sure why. It just sorta slipped out.
But Jesus. EVERYWHERE. EVERY GODDAMN MOMENT.
I am logged off of facebook. Mainly because I don't want him to see me on.
Though I do have this secret wish for him to message me. Which he won't. Because he's a butt. And he won't text me. Because he's a horrible texter.
So, I should just give up right?
How do I go about doing that?
Why is it so hard?
Fuck.
Wow. This day is all kinds of awful.
I walked in on my parents going at it at 6:50 AM in the fucking morning. Like, what the fuck? Really? How do you even have enough energy to do that? Fucking nasty.
So I got to school in an awkward mood.
To make matters worse, I saw him at least 6 times today.
First, at break when I was walking to see a friend.
Second, on the way back to fourth period after break ended.
Third, on the way to lunch after fourth period ended.
Fourth, I was working down at the media center with my group (Calvin, Nate, and Dyllon). I was sure I wouldn't see him there. I went to see the librarian and ask for some tape, and guess who I see walking down the ramp? Yeah, him. We make more awkward eye contact. I follow him back down to my table, the whole time hoping he won't go to talk to Calvin (I realize that they're good friends as I'm walking behind him.) And of course, he walks right up to Calvin and high fives him or something and then proceeds to sit at MY (excuse me, my group's) table. I walked around him (he still didn't see me aside from when I was getting tape) and ended up diagonal/across from him. Again, more awkward eye contact, a slight incline of the head to acknowledge each other. I talked to him a little later about what he was working on (english). And that's it. So weird. Who would've thought he'd be THERE of all places? I mean, COME ON. Give me a break!
Fifth, on my way down the ramp after sixth period to get my track bag.
Sixth, outside of the girl's locker room, by the entrance to the track, while I was talking on the phone and talking to someone in person. I actually said "hey". And I'm not sure why. It just sorta slipped out.
But Jesus. EVERYWHERE. EVERY GODDAMN MOMENT.
I am logged off of facebook. Mainly because I don't want him to see me on.
Though I do have this secret wish for him to message me. Which he won't. Because he's a butt. And he won't text me. Because he's a horrible texter.
So, I should just give up right?
How do I go about doing that?
Why is it so hard?
Fuck.
