I tikky-tikky-tired. Sunday night and I got through my four hours of daily writing. Maybe an hour's worth of writing and thinking about writing in there - got the theme of my screenplay sorted out, and "ruminated" on the theme a bit. I realized you can put form to the formless art of writing. Breaking it down into bits can make it manageable - it's good to focus on one tiny part of the whole. That can be done. Facing the goal of simply "writing a screenplay" is too huge a task.

Maybe that can be done with the other problems in my life. Break it down to small bits - give some structure to it. I can do a small bit.

What problems do I have to deal with? Dealing with my parents. Finding employment and/or money. That's a big one. Not enough money for rent this wednesday and unemployment isn't enough. Credit card bills, therapy bills... my god, where did the last seven months go? What have I done? My mind shot out into space with all the limitless possibilities - but never really chose a possibility. Just floated amongst the potentiality of infinite futures.

Going to her house tonight to watch tv. I really like her a lot. She seems calm and relaxed. I like that! It makes me calm and relaxed. She's pretty too.

I wouldn't mind watching a movie if there were any good movies out there. I don't want to deal with the sturm and drang of Harry Potter 7.1. Who cares. The comedies out there aren't really funny. The dramas are not too dramatic. I love the feel of a nice movie theatre too, popcorn, a big soda, as the previews end and the screen goes black as the movie begins...

Waka waka wing dong. Fluffy fluffy foo. Gimme some chocolate sauce and make sure it's goo.

Any pain right now? No, not at all. Any problems right now. No - no problems right now. Im feeling good. Wow - I'm not complaining about how my life sucks. This isn't bad.

Giffa giffa goo.