521 2453. his number was flashing across my cell fone. i was excited. it wud be the first time in THREE months we talked. i answered. he took forever to say hi. to hear his voice talking to me was to die for. we talked about everything. he wud read parts of my letter nd say how he felt about it. in my letter i had written "im not asking to win you back, but to at least be friends" and he told me "um you never lost me" my heart melted. i was cudnt be any happier. he kept saying he lovedd me nd he missed me both in english and spanish. he kept singing to me. it was around 3 hours into our convo where i was getting sleepy. i told him "im getting sleepy i have to go" he said "dnt leave me again" in those 3 hours it was like we were in a place no one cud touch. the next day we had skewl it was awkward because i ddnt know to talk to yu or not. but we did. (: and slowly we were getting closer and closer. you stopped mentioning leyvi nd you and HER were done. and she was on maternity leave. around 2 weeks after we started talking again, we had intercourse for the first time. then the next week. and it became a weekly thing. and after we did that, you got really CLINGY to me. it was constricting. but i ddnt always mind, i jst loved you. then she came back from leave. nd u had to pretend not be talking to me, cuz she still hated me nd she had ur kid and she cud easily take the kid away if she saw u talking to me. so we had a secret thing. it was cool because you were ALL mine, not hers but mine.
march 11 2010, it was 3 days before my birthday, i was walking around with esme and wen we turned, you were kissing HER. you guys were back together nd i was broken. it was 6 period next. i sat in my seat in tears. wondering how i cud be so fcking stupid. cris was seated next to me comforting me. then u had the BALLS to fcking touch and talk to me. and u expected me to talk to you?! i told u not to touch me and to leave me alone. and you did. you tired calling me but i ddnt answer. in my head we were thru. then on my birthday, i cried because i missed you. it was close to being midnite of the following day. i was about to sleep whn u called me. i answered and we talked. u said happy bday and we talked a little bit. i told you i ddnt want to talk to you ever. and it was the 2nd bday he had ruined. he was trying to get me not to be mad but how cud i not? being dumped near/on my bday by the same guy two years in a row!!!!! i told him i wanted my stuff and i ddnt want to talk to yu again.
that lasted about a couple of hours. in 6th period i went up to him and told him that i want to be okay. he of course said yea. but i knew we werent. it was weird with us the whole time. then we got grouped in a project together. that was the beginning of the END.....tbc
march 11 2010, it was 3 days before my birthday, i was walking around with esme and wen we turned, you were kissing HER. you guys were back together nd i was broken. it was 6 period next. i sat in my seat in tears. wondering how i cud be so fcking stupid. cris was seated next to me comforting me. then u had the BALLS to fcking touch and talk to me. and u expected me to talk to you?! i told u not to touch me and to leave me alone. and you did. you tired calling me but i ddnt answer. in my head we were thru. then on my birthday, i cried because i missed you. it was close to being midnite of the following day. i was about to sleep whn u called me. i answered and we talked. u said happy bday and we talked a little bit. i told you i ddnt want to talk to you ever. and it was the 2nd bday he had ruined. he was trying to get me not to be mad but how cud i not? being dumped near/on my bday by the same guy two years in a row!!!!! i told him i wanted my stuff and i ddnt want to talk to yu again.
that lasted about a couple of hours. in 6th period i went up to him and told him that i want to be okay. he of course said yea. but i knew we werent. it was weird with us the whole time. then we got grouped in a project together. that was the beginning of the END.....tbc
