PREGNANT. i still hate that word. So she was pregnant. WOW. the 'love' of my life was having a kid wit her. at that point i went into a fit of rage. it was only normal to feel that. in my head im like 'i cant believe it. i dnt trust mayra nd fanny. they cud be BS-ing me. but esme wudnt do that to me. i know she wudnt' so i believed it. i cried for a while. 4 days after the news, he has the balls to call me. i dnt think he knew i knew but i dnt know. i clicked ignored. he called again and i ignored. i was so proud of me!! until about a week after that. he called me again, and i answered. we talked and he acted normal. he asked me if he cud come over. i said..... yes... he came to my house. i was just staring at him. in the almost 2 months i hadnt seen him his hair GREW! he was wearing tighter clothes and eyeliner. the 'cholo' guy i met was now a emo looking dude. but i ddnt care. so we hung out, and i wanted to kiss him but i cudnt! so after a while i asked him to leave. but he ddnt. nd i ddnt mind. we ended kissing alot! but nothing beyond that. he wanted more. i cud feel his member poking me but i ddnt do anything. after he had left, i felt guilty. he ddnt mention anything about her. but why wud he? a couple days later he called me, and was like 'do u knw?'
i was acting dumb, but at that point he knew i knew. we talked and i told him that i ddnt care. i still loved him and i wanted to b wit him. so we were. then junior year started. and me and him had mostly every class together! it was like a dream come true! me and him most of the day every day. he was still with her. but i ddnt care we still mess around. then he started flirting with Leyvi. in front of my face! and he wud always tell me how cute she was and all that junk. it was pissing me off!! after a couple of weeks of that annoyance, i was just tired of it. i stpped talking to him all together. he noticed and tried talking to me but i ddnt talk back. after 2 weeks i was PLANNING on talking to him again but then things came up. it was the day before halloween and i was hanging wit my friend Chris. he told me that he heard HIM talking to ppl and saying that i *blew* him. at that moment i hated him. there was no way i was going to talk to him now!! fck everything that happened.
3 months. it was 3 months that i lasted without talking to him before i WENT back. my house got robbed 1.13.10 and at that moment i saw life was 2 short to not 'be with the one that i love' so i wrote him a letter. a letter that said i want to b AT LEAST friends&that i still loved him. my friend gave it to him. i was TERRIFIED of wat he was going to respond. 'nah fck u bitch' or something of that nature. i even turned off my fone scared of wat wud happen. i eventually turned it back on. he hadnt call that day. i thought i had my answer. it was then midnite nd i got a call.......tbc
i was acting dumb, but at that point he knew i knew. we talked and i told him that i ddnt care. i still loved him and i wanted to b wit him. so we were. then junior year started. and me and him had mostly every class together! it was like a dream come true! me and him most of the day every day. he was still with her. but i ddnt care we still mess around. then he started flirting with Leyvi. in front of my face! and he wud always tell me how cute she was and all that junk. it was pissing me off!! after a couple of weeks of that annoyance, i was just tired of it. i stpped talking to him all together. he noticed and tried talking to me but i ddnt talk back. after 2 weeks i was PLANNING on talking to him again but then things came up. it was the day before halloween and i was hanging wit my friend Chris. he told me that he heard HIM talking to ppl and saying that i *blew* him. at that moment i hated him. there was no way i was going to talk to him now!! fck everything that happened.
3 months. it was 3 months that i lasted without talking to him before i WENT back. my house got robbed 1.13.10 and at that moment i saw life was 2 short to not 'be with the one that i love' so i wrote him a letter. a letter that said i want to b AT LEAST friends&that i still loved him. my friend gave it to him. i was TERRIFIED of wat he was going to respond. 'nah fck u bitch' or something of that nature. i even turned off my fone scared of wat wud happen. i eventually turned it back on. he hadnt call that day. i thought i had my answer. it was then midnite nd i got a call.......tbc
