Pregnant. the word appears again. this time it was me instead of HER. well, i still ddnt know but i cud've been. you were shocked. you ddnt know wat to say. i wud be ur baby mama number 2. we sat down and i was telling you that i did not want to keep it if i was. you said that u wud be there if i was but u ddnt want me to get rid of it. you kept holding me and kissing me and telling me it wud all be alrite. then u left. i felt like crap. my happiest day with you and i had to kill it by telling you. later that same day you called me. we talked and you told me that you broke up with HER and that you want to be with me. i was happy but sad. i knew that the next day i had to buy a pregnancy test to know. in matters like this i had to know as soon as possible because if i was pregnant i wud be around 1 1/2 months. it was 4.20.10 the 1 yr aniversary wen i first gave u a blow j and the day i wud find out if was pregnant. before class started i asked Armando to go to the store and buy me a test. wen he gave it to me i kept wanting to go to the restroom during first period but i cudnt pee. in 2nd period you walked to me and started talking to me. it was awkward. you touched my stomache, and i got mad because u were making it obvious AND u were making me get attached to the possible fetus. we spend the class together but it was AWKWARD like hell. it was halfway thru the class wen u turn to me nd say "um you know i care for you but im not ready for a relationship. i'll be there for u if u are pregnant but i dnt want to be in a relationship." i was PISSED. yesterday you were tellin me u loved me and u want to b with me and now u dnt? i stayed for awhile to suppress the tears. u ddnt deserve to see me cry. i got up, turned off my computer, and began to leave. u told me not to. i stayed for a couple of mins and then said "why shudnt i leave?" u said "well i dnt want to stop u if you do" i walked away nd never looked back. i spent the rest of the class and day crying. i had forgotten about my pregnancy and was talking care of my broken heart. it was after skewl but before my college course where i took the test. i waited and waited and finally i got the result. it read......TBC.