negative! i wasnt pregnant! i was happy!! but then i was filled with anger, towards myself. not because i put myself in that situation, but i was angry because i told you and u left me. if i wudve taken the test earlier we cudve still been together. as the days went on i realized that its better i know now you were an asshole then later on. it had been days after the test but i was still worried. my period ddnt come so i thought it was a false negative. i was going to get another test but then i got my period. it was 3 weeks late but i was happy. but the period was weird. at moments it was gone, and other moments it was there. so i think i mite have miscarried but i still dnt know. i ddnt tell you my results. u dnt have the right to know. i want you to wonder forever, if i was ever pregnant. you had some lame attempts to get near/talk/ get to know stuff about me. you asked around how i was doing, you wud get near me on occasions you didnt have to, and you tried talking to me once. some made me smile and i've wanted to reciprocate the action. but with the help of Chris, Cris, Fanny, and Mayra I've decided not to on all occasions.

Authors Note.
its been several months later since we ended. i still think of him course. he took 2 years of my life. i think of the great, the bad and the worse. it took me a while to get to this point. im not happy but i knw i dnt need him. while writing this colllection of memories of us, i've cried, gotten mad, and smiled. and though he hurt me bad nd made me lose trust of people. i thank him. for giving me something real if even for just a moment. and i thank him, because i know now i am stronger than i thought. if i cud survive this "break up" every other break up after this sud be a piece of cake. thank you Cesar. and maybe this isnt the end of my feelings for you, but it is the end of US. Thank you Readers for reading.

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