in the summer i imagine that i can run away somewhere sweet and cool, like living in a house that feels like cucumbers. cool and refreshing and not smelling of cigarettes. if there's any vice i loathe: it's cigarettes. well, smoking to be more frank. i don't care what it is, i don't feel like i should be subjected to others' addictions. i can't breathe for the smoke that i'm forced to breathe, and it's unfair. anyway, back to summer living. i already sleep most of the day away and stay up all night while it's fresher. i'd like to spend the daytime hours i am awake, in a place with a light breeze, eating a bit of watermelon, and drinking sweet iced tea. i imagine my summer to be filled with swimming, and visiting, adventures and fun. in reality i've been spending the last few days watching anime, laying half naked in front of my fan in my room, and asking to go out. it seems everyone is too busy or something, which is unfortunate. this is my last weekend before i start school again, i'd like to enjoy it to the fullest.
i dont HAVE to go to school this summer, but if i don't go to school the time get to be so long. not to mention the fact that the sooner i finish my required courses, the sooner i can get away and go to a university. to be honest, i'm nervous about it. i'll have to take out a loan, and living on my own in a new city, it's scary. its funny that i would jump at the chance to leave the country and go to japan in a heartbeat, a place where theres no family in the same area, continent or side of the world, but going a few hours away to school: feels terrifying.