nothing outrageous or really that embarrassing, just stuff like "touch your nose" "hum a song" "tell a joke" the emt, we jokingly said "fake a seizure".. first of all.. half the world doesn't even know what a seizure looks like, second of all those who do know couldn't imitate one properly anyway. i was expecting her to say no, then i'd ask for her to hop like a bunny or something.. just a little shock. like i said though, she got pissed. went over the top freaking out. sometimes people can't just take a joke. if she had agreed, we'd have let her in without even having to do it.. overreaction much?
so my grandma goes into the hospital again, her smoking and asthma and allergies just got to be too much. then a family member sends me a message on facebook, asking if i could have my mom call her. turns out my dad's mom's sister (my great aunt) has died. after rushing to call my grandparents, my uncle, my dad.... i got through to my grandpa and my uncle. still no reply from my dad. i found a "regret" on secretregrets.com, that broke my heart yesterday, it said: Dad,
I regret that despite how smart of a kid I was, I still truly loved you and believed you would always put me first despite your history. I regret crying so many nights and pretending I didn't mind. I regret that I did mind you were never around. I regret I let it all boil inside silently until I finally blew up and completely pushed you out of my life. I regret that you let me and I let our relationship define me. I regret that I never gave myself a chance to scream at you and you a chance to defend yourself. But mostly I regret allowing things to get this bad, because now I'm supposed to fix a relationship, I can't even face.
21/f
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it was like this 21 year old girl, had lived a few years of my life. it makes me burst into tears sometimes, thinking about how much i want him to love me, and how it seems like he never will.
the same day that all of this happens, my mom gets two calls from friends she's had since kindergarten. each had deaths in their families. one was on monday, the other today.
so my grandma goes into the hospital again, her smoking and asthma and allergies just got to be too much. then a family member sends me a message on facebook, asking if i could have my mom call her. turns out my dad's mom's sister (my great aunt) has died. after rushing to call my grandparents, my uncle, my dad.... i got through to my grandpa and my uncle. still no reply from my dad. i found a "regret" on secretregrets.com, that broke my heart yesterday, it said: Dad,
I regret that despite how smart of a kid I was, I still truly loved you and believed you would always put me first despite your history. I regret crying so many nights and pretending I didn't mind. I regret that I did mind you were never around. I regret I let it all boil inside silently until I finally blew up and completely pushed you out of my life. I regret that you let me and I let our relationship define me. I regret that I never gave myself a chance to scream at you and you a chance to defend yourself. But mostly I regret allowing things to get this bad, because now I'm supposed to fix a relationship, I can't even face.
21/f
..
it was like this 21 year old girl, had lived a few years of my life. it makes me burst into tears sometimes, thinking about how much i want him to love me, and how it seems like he never will.
the same day that all of this happens, my mom gets two calls from friends she's had since kindergarten. each had deaths in their families. one was on monday, the other today.
