auburn,

sometimes I wonder if you know that you saved my life.

today I was re-reading old journals and was struck by how desolate I sounded, how purposeless and sad and lost. for a moment I couldn't recall just where the shift happened... and then I realized.

when you moved in I had to try for someone besides myself. it became my responsibility to make sure you were happy, to make sure you ate, to make sure you were doing okay in school, in life. most often the easiest way to make sure this happened was to participate...

... and all of a sudden I was eating, drinking enough water, talking. without making too much noise about it my life began to subtly shift, and as I walked the treacherous path of attempting to act like a good example I found myself actually becoming that person.

a person I could like, a person I could feel proud of, a person who deserves the confidence you place in me now.

somewhere along the line we became a family, and I finally won the battle with the dark pit that had been sucking at my heels for years. I don't think you know how close I'd been to giving in before that, and just how instrumental you've been in my steady climb back up.

I'm happier than I can remember being in a long time, and knowing you're happy too is a huge part of that.

thanks, little confidant, I don't know what I'd do without you.

signed, sincerely, me.