11/27/2010 (2:26 am, just to point out what and when this is summarizing)
So, I was in the middle of reading an article on MFA vs NYC literary worlds, which got me to thinking about worlds, my obsession with them, and categorization and generalizations, etc etc, but then for some reason my mind wandered back to porn, and then, of course, my own experiences (about as unpornlike as one can get).
The subject of my thoughts were cumshots. Yes, I realize how lewd this all is but this isn't really the point. The point, so to speak, is that this stirred within me (what bs prose that was) a memory. With Melissa. Oi. The memory, to briefly recap in excruciating detail, is from my freshman year of college (she was still a senior in high school but was my age, so please, don't freak out). She was house sitting somewhere and we decided that I should stay the night with her, since such opportunities rarely came forth back then (flash forward to the summer post sophomore year when that would change dramatically [another story for another time]). Anyways, we hadn't had sex yet and so it was a lot of fondling, oral, and rubbing of the genitals together, longing to just break that barrier and go all the way but restraining ourselves at the same time. Constantly having to slow down so that I could extract myself from her and we could continue.
Anyways, that was obviously not getting me off, only teasing me. Well, each other really. For hours. The things you do as a teenager in terms of sex are really quite insane to think about. To the point, I finished myself off and I tapped her to swallow. She took me in her mouth but she didn't swallow. Instead, she did something which out of nowhere struck me while I lay in bed. She got up, smiled and/or giggled, licked my face along the cheek, and then went to the bathroom to spit and wash her mouth. This was kind of a surprise to me, because it was one of the first times I had tried to get her to swallow and my previous girlfriend pretty much took it down like it was water. I was shocked and bewildered, but also laughing because it was hilarious.
And as I thought about it, it struck me that what she did was such an immature childish stupid and hilariously funny little thing to do. And it was sweet and endearing. I know it may be cliched but that particular act probably stays in my heart more than many of the others because it was so her. Or at least was her. Is it possible that something like that could still happen? I realize I'm still young and thus my dating pool is still young but already I feel significantly different than I did in college, especially way at the beginning of college. Would Melissa do the same or similar thing should such an opportunity occur again?
So, I was in the middle of reading an article on MFA vs NYC literary worlds, which got me to thinking about worlds, my obsession with them, and categorization and generalizations, etc etc, but then for some reason my mind wandered back to porn, and then, of course, my own experiences (about as unpornlike as one can get).
The subject of my thoughts were cumshots. Yes, I realize how lewd this all is but this isn't really the point. The point, so to speak, is that this stirred within me (what bs prose that was) a memory. With Melissa. Oi. The memory, to briefly recap in excruciating detail, is from my freshman year of college (she was still a senior in high school but was my age, so please, don't freak out). She was house sitting somewhere and we decided that I should stay the night with her, since such opportunities rarely came forth back then (flash forward to the summer post sophomore year when that would change dramatically [another story for another time]). Anyways, we hadn't had sex yet and so it was a lot of fondling, oral, and rubbing of the genitals together, longing to just break that barrier and go all the way but restraining ourselves at the same time. Constantly having to slow down so that I could extract myself from her and we could continue.
Anyways, that was obviously not getting me off, only teasing me. Well, each other really. For hours. The things you do as a teenager in terms of sex are really quite insane to think about. To the point, I finished myself off and I tapped her to swallow. She took me in her mouth but she didn't swallow. Instead, she did something which out of nowhere struck me while I lay in bed. She got up, smiled and/or giggled, licked my face along the cheek, and then went to the bathroom to spit and wash her mouth. This was kind of a surprise to me, because it was one of the first times I had tried to get her to swallow and my previous girlfriend pretty much took it down like it was water. I was shocked and bewildered, but also laughing because it was hilarious.
And as I thought about it, it struck me that what she did was such an immature childish stupid and hilariously funny little thing to do. And it was sweet and endearing. I know it may be cliched but that particular act probably stays in my heart more than many of the others because it was so her. Or at least was her. Is it possible that something like that could still happen? I realize I'm still young and thus my dating pool is still young but already I feel significantly different than I did in college, especially way at the beginning of college. Would Melissa do the same or similar thing should such an opportunity occur again?
