The very first moment I saw him, I knew that something was going to happen. I had a feeling that I'd end up loving him. I didn't at that moment, but a seed was planted in my mind and it grew over the year into something huge that isn't going to go away for a long time. I will always love him. Just the thought of him being with someone else just kills me. I want him all for myself. It makes no difference how long I have to wait. I just want him for me. Every time I imagine myself with someone else, it goes straight to him, automatically. I think about him constantly. I guess that's what you do when you love someone. It's not bad or obsessive. When you're in love, you do crazy things. I know I have, and I'm sure you have as well. There's always more to say. I have written thousands upon thousands of words about him and this subject, but there's always more. I could go on. One day, I want him to be able to read these words and feel the same way. I want everyone to feel this passionate about someone. It's good to be in love. It brings light into your everyday life. You may hurt sometimes, but you'll smile too, and that's what matters. Be careful with your heart, but don't be afraid to love. Don't give yourself up too easily, but don't block everyone out. Don't think that every boy is a jerk and is going to break your heart; they have feelings too. They, contrary to popular belief, have a mental capacity large enough to sincerely love as well as girls do. And boys, don't think every girl is a slut. In reality, girls that sleep around are likely very insecure and cheat because they're insecure and feel a need to be controlling and powerful, much like a bully. Love can sometimes seem like a game, but it doesn't have to be. You can love without hurting anyone and without being hurt. Even if you do get hurt, you can move on. It takes time, strength, and willpower, trust me, but your broken heart will eventually mend. Even if you hurt someone, there is always the apology. You shouldn't let it go unfixed. If they don't accept an apology that is sincere, it brings us back to moving on. We all have to do it at some point. And maybe, just maybe, if you're one of the lucky ones, the one that you love more than anything in the universe will love you back. On that note, I send my best wishes and sincerest prayers with you. Happy loving!