i shall teach myself how to kiss from watching the trashy teen drama series they now have on abc family. ahahaaha.
it's all new to me.this kissing,did i do that right,omg i messed up, oh that was a good one, oh i want to try that-thing. it's fun and new and really really scary.
i can still taste our kisses on my lips and i can still feel his hands on my hips or my arms or my waist.it's so strange, so strange that i never want it to go away.
we just went to the movies today. nothing out of the ordinary. he pulled the whole "yawn" thing..it was so cute.we just sat together, close and intertwined.perfection.
it's weird how some stuff works out.
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tomorrow is my mommy's anniversary and i really miss her. i was thinking today about how much easier my life would be if she were still alive.i wouldn't have to lie about going to see Chris.i would probably never have started cutting and i wouldn't be anorexic(HAHAHA no.i would be,,she was one). if she were still alive i would only see gram and pop two or three times a week and i could have my own puppy and i would always look perfect cuz that's just how she rolled. i would still be in ballet and irish dance and tap and jazz.i would still be taking guitar and tin whistle and i would probably have made cheer.
it's been 8 years, and i still miss her everyday. i still cry at least 3 times a week and i still talk to her. i think she would really have liked Chris. I know she would love Sammi(and her momma) and everyone from tmla... and i know she loved Case already so that would have been good.
sometimes i think my life would be perfect if she were still alive.
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i'm attempting to learn two of my favorite songs on the guitar, even though it's out of tune and i barely remember how to play the darn thing. I shall master "The Only Exception" and "The Circle Game" by the end of the summer.
it's all new to me.this kissing,did i do that right,omg i messed up, oh that was a good one, oh i want to try that-thing. it's fun and new and really really scary.
i can still taste our kisses on my lips and i can still feel his hands on my hips or my arms or my waist.it's so strange, so strange that i never want it to go away.
we just went to the movies today. nothing out of the ordinary. he pulled the whole "yawn" thing..it was so cute.we just sat together, close and intertwined.perfection.
it's weird how some stuff works out.
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tomorrow is my mommy's anniversary and i really miss her. i was thinking today about how much easier my life would be if she were still alive.i wouldn't have to lie about going to see Chris.i would probably never have started cutting and i wouldn't be anorexic(HAHAHA no.i would be,,she was one). if she were still alive i would only see gram and pop two or three times a week and i could have my own puppy and i would always look perfect cuz that's just how she rolled. i would still be in ballet and irish dance and tap and jazz.i would still be taking guitar and tin whistle and i would probably have made cheer.
it's been 8 years, and i still miss her everyday. i still cry at least 3 times a week and i still talk to her. i think she would really have liked Chris. I know she would love Sammi(and her momma) and everyone from tmla... and i know she loved Case already so that would have been good.
sometimes i think my life would be perfect if she were still alive.
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i'm attempting to learn two of my favorite songs on the guitar, even though it's out of tune and i barely remember how to play the darn thing. I shall master "The Only Exception" and "The Circle Game" by the end of the summer.
