(Breathe,okay you can do this). How? It doesn't matter you have to do this. Pulling away in this car is tearing my heart out of my chest. Look its fifty miles. Fifty miles I have been without you. These have been the worst 50 miles of my life. I don't want to do this..I have the looming fear that this is not going to be temporary.

Hello Stranger,
Remember the night we met? The awkward glances and conversation...I loved you so much at that moment. I love you more now. I haven't been without you since those wonderful moments almost two years ago. We have been through terrible times, and we have been through the most wonderful times. I feel you near me. That sweet and wonderful smell of your skin. You still make my heart skip a beat. I will always love you.

Yesterday I went for a walk in the park, it wasn't the same without your hand in mine. Its as if part of me is missing. I am beginning to forget all those little things, and it makes me feel like I am failing. I don't want to fail you. Do you still hear me? I know you can hear me. I just want to breathe you in, I just need to do that. I will be fine if I can do that. I can't do that. What will I do.
You are my wall. My ground to stand on. I need you to know that. I wish I were there, this doesn't seem right me without you. This is not right.