And once again I ask--what else would you be doing anyway? If you weren't devoting your time and energy to school again for another year? Working? But where? You don't even have a definite job lined up at this point. And even if you did, it wouldn't be a great one, you already know that. So yeah. Just fucking go with it. Play the hand you've been dealt. You know that overall, you are pretty much one amazingly (even unbelievably) fortunate person. So what more is there to worry about?