I started on a list of things that made me happy, aptly titled "Reasons Not To Kill Yourself" and so far, I've been able to put just one entry. That's not an indicator of doom since I do have many things to be happy about, it's just that I haven't had the time nor patience to list them all down.
In other news, I am finally about to finish college. A few more months of academic trivialities and I AM DONE. Finally! And that makes me think of my pending future. When the word 'future' is thrown around, it usually implies things of grand scale and rosy tints. Why this is, I have no idea. The future basically means things that are about to happen, regardless of their nature, good, bad, devastating, elating, you get my point. Now, my future looks a bit cloudy in the sense that I'm unsure of what I'm to do after college. At least, immediately after. I have about 3 options and I think I was already supposed to start scouting around for those options but so far, I have done nothing but think of them. I don't know what I want to do. Although, I have been told that the most interesting people don't. It would be nice to have a bit of clarity. What makes us choose our paths? Money? Security in the form of money? It's sad how everything boils down to CASH. Can't live with it, can't live without it.
I've dipped a toe into the "real world" and so far, it's freaking me out. Where school was predictable, everything outside is so uncertain and I'm finding that I still can't deal with it.
In other news, I am finally about to finish college. A few more months of academic trivialities and I AM DONE. Finally! And that makes me think of my pending future. When the word 'future' is thrown around, it usually implies things of grand scale and rosy tints. Why this is, I have no idea. The future basically means things that are about to happen, regardless of their nature, good, bad, devastating, elating, you get my point. Now, my future looks a bit cloudy in the sense that I'm unsure of what I'm to do after college. At least, immediately after. I have about 3 options and I think I was already supposed to start scouting around for those options but so far, I have done nothing but think of them. I don't know what I want to do. Although, I have been told that the most interesting people don't. It would be nice to have a bit of clarity. What makes us choose our paths? Money? Security in the form of money? It's sad how everything boils down to CASH. Can't live with it, can't live without it.
I've dipped a toe into the "real world" and so far, it's freaking me out. Where school was predictable, everything outside is so uncertain and I'm finding that I still can't deal with it.
