Yes, I get jealous, even of students who pretend to be interested in his subject, while here I am genuinely working my ass off to be the best student he's had. What is he to me? I know for a fact I cannot be in love with him, because you don't get sudden urges to slap someone you love. Now when he walks out at the end of the class, I feel just like an abandoned lover after a one night stand, with no calls to expect, no promises, just like a teacher should.