have you ever tried to sleep
with a broken heart
beating faintly
too faintly
to be healthy?

have your thoughts ever kept you awake
have your sweet dreams
morphed
into terrors of the night
to be seen only by you?

have you ever been misunderstood
to the point where you feel your thoughts
gnawing
gnashing
looking for a way out
but finding no way but
the blade in your hand
the blood in your veins

have you ever looked up at yourself
in the mirror framed by ceramic
and seen hate reflected
in your eyes
for your eyes
for yourself?

no?
then don't you fucking tell me what's right and what's wrong
don't you fucking tell me that i'll ever belong.
~k