Isn't it terrible how another human being can hurt you so much? I wouldn't wish the pain I'm in upon even my worst enemy. I couldn't imagine being hurt so much by him. I thought that we were good together, y'know? I'm sure everyone can relate to this. "Shall I compare thee to a summer's day..." Well, you can shove that pickup line right up your ass. How could I have fallen for you and your charm and charisma? I guess a better question is how couldn't I have? There was just something about you. I felt safe in your arms and, though I want to be there now, I don't think that I would be safe. He has the absolute GALL to then tell me about the girl he's basically in love with? He was dating three days after me. I still love him. I thought I was special to him. I thought wrong, I suppose.

I want to be happy for him
I should be
I love him and I know
that I didn't deserve him

But I can't be happy for him
Because the pain is too great
to feel happy for anything
or anyone
or me
ever

As I sit I bleed it out
tracing scars with my fingertips
shuddering as they pass over the fresh ones
wincing with heartache as I touch my lips
that touched his
too many times
to make this okay