20-8-15 18:16
Fuck. Why does listening to Drake make me feel like this? I don't want to miss him. I don't really miss him, though. He screwed me up too many times. He knew we were talking last year, last semester, but he still went to another white girl. Of course, I'm not surprised. He's a fuck boy. Everyone knows but why the hell did I get so attached? Thank god she moved away when her parents found out she was fucking him. I was there for him. I offered money and all the help he wanted but hell, he still wouldn't understand that he hurt me so damn much that I would still fight for him. This year was going so damn well. I got to hang out with him, tell him my feelings and find out his feelings were mutual. I gave him my goddamn virginity and he still fucks me over. Don't get fucking mad at me for finding out that my friends know. Your best friend knows and mine can't? Jesus Christ, what are you hiding! You can fuck anyone you want and tell everyone about it but when it comes to me, you end up getting pissed people found out? Or are you afraid of the girl you're talking to will find out. Can't believe I fell for you shit once again. It's not because I lost my virginity to you that I'm going crazy or the fact that I'm on my period. No, I'm mad because you decided to screw me over once again. Funny thing is that I saw this coming and I fucking fell for it. You get mad when I joke around about you chilling with your "hoes", but it seems like I'm the joke. It seems like I'm the "hoe" now since you try to hide me your shadow. I will admit that I will fall for you again possibly. I will make the same mistakes too. I guess old habits will always stay.
Fuck. Why does listening to Drake make me feel like this? I don't want to miss him. I don't really miss him, though. He screwed me up too many times. He knew we were talking last year, last semester, but he still went to another white girl. Of course, I'm not surprised. He's a fuck boy. Everyone knows but why the hell did I get so attached? Thank god she moved away when her parents found out she was fucking him. I was there for him. I offered money and all the help he wanted but hell, he still wouldn't understand that he hurt me so damn much that I would still fight for him. This year was going so damn well. I got to hang out with him, tell him my feelings and find out his feelings were mutual. I gave him my goddamn virginity and he still fucks me over. Don't get fucking mad at me for finding out that my friends know. Your best friend knows and mine can't? Jesus Christ, what are you hiding! You can fuck anyone you want and tell everyone about it but when it comes to me, you end up getting pissed people found out? Or are you afraid of the girl you're talking to will find out. Can't believe I fell for you shit once again. It's not because I lost my virginity to you that I'm going crazy or the fact that I'm on my period. No, I'm mad because you decided to screw me over once again. Funny thing is that I saw this coming and I fucking fell for it. You get mad when I joke around about you chilling with your "hoes", but it seems like I'm the joke. It seems like I'm the "hoe" now since you try to hide me your shadow. I will admit that I will fall for you again possibly. I will make the same mistakes too. I guess old habits will always stay.
