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Day to Day Thoughts
After everything that has been done I still find it hard to believe that we spent the day together with our son, But I believe that it was spent with Ill intent. The one of "I Shall Show You Heaven Before I send you to Hell" Mentality. As the past has shown you're more than willing to resort to Mental Warfare and Manipulation with me in an attempt to control me or for your own sadistic pleasure of watching me in pain. But a part of you knows now stemming from yesterday's little get together that those days are long gone, That's why you had nothing to say, You were studying me, Why the little questions that nag you went unanswered, Why our son after three months of not seeing me suddenly perks up and his "Hissy fits" Suddenly end within 45 seconds of me picking him up, I am a force to be reckoned with now, I left you speechless, The hate in your sunglasses covered eyes was suddenly met with the true fluidity of my character, That you never truly got to see, And now your scared by it, In the beginning you believed that you right, Now everything that you said, did, and assumed were right are now wrong, The man you never thought I would be and constantly spoke down upon is now in full sight, And you saw it, How trivial must all of it feel now to see everything that I've accomplished on my own, and look in the mirror and see what you've done, How much freedom I've attained by truly being honest with myself, How in such a short time I'd rectified 2 years of mistakes only to arrive in the same body but with a new level of compassion,benevolence and a rejuvenated smile. And I already know your plan, Destruction. Absolute Unwavering Unjustified and most of all Unflattering, Why Unflattering ? Because it show's your true level of maturity to those around you. Through Manipulation only do you succeed, And through perseverance do I supersede all your betrayals. You can be angry, spiteful and hateful all you want but you made the choice that put you in your predicament and set me free from your tyranny, So I guess all that lording over me had it's benefits. I'm happy, free and relishing in my accomplishments, And your well..Plotting my destruction and downfall in some way, And I'm flattered, Through the never you still feel the need to focus on making me miserable instead of fixing your own problems. So To Finally retort to everything that you've said in the past. Who really has an infatuation with someone ? Just because I Wrote about you today doesn't mean you register in my thought process constantly, It just goes to show who is the more convoluted of the the two. I Focus on building my life up and having a place for our son and you focus on destroying it. Hopefully you will have an epiphany and see it. That through all of the cruel words, betrayals and back stabbing's we've committed against another, Mine were for protection for my livelihood and not spite and If didn't affect you why do it ? So I just have to proven wrong in saying you did it because you weren't included in it, You decided that your pride was worth more than being an adult and In doing so I passed you right by and you got offended when I did the impossible, I moved on from you and never looked back.

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