Missed a day, Show's how busy my life really is..Sometimes..I guess today was a busy day, did a short turn around to be back at work, After I ran all over Hell's half acre for someone else. (all I needed was soap and deodorant) But that's usually how it works, And now I'm sitting at work Half in/ Half out for 18 hrs. I feel happy but sad, I miss my son but it's only a twinge, Something else lies wrapped in darkness poking at my emotional center confusing the black and white singularity that is my life. By far my mental quota hasn't been met for BS today, Could be the fact that I'm mentally tired already, Or the fact that for once in life I'm responsible for a life I helped create and I'm tired of being forced to carry the burden alone while she sings a sweet sorrowful tune of "Woe Is Me and My Child", Cute tune for a whole 5 minutes and the lie falls apart at the seams, No It's not the BMD, It's that for once I just might have just broken the barriers that have help me hostage for so long, Instead of being a Lone Wolf without a home range, I've become a leader. I've gotten bigger, stronger faster, smarter and wiser and have began creating a home for myself with a stable environment for my son,