"Hi, my name is Candy and I'm a stalker, a cyber stalker, to be precise."
I smile at myself in the mirror. But it sounds so wrong. Am I that pathetic?
I am a senior in college. People say I'm not ugly, but a nerd. I have never even had a boyfriend before and I have been cyber stalking this guy since sophomore year.
What makes me attracted to this person is still a mystery to me. I haven't seen him in person since eighth grade, and he's a a fat computer nerd at a prestigious school in the Midwest.
Me? I'm an enginerd at a state school in the mountains. I love the Rockies and could not imagine living where else.
Before I go to bed every night, I would check my Facebook, his and my instant messenger to see whether he is online. I usually only chat with him two-three times at the most each week. I don't want him to be too suspicious, although I really want to just chat with him every single time I see him online. Then, I would go to bed and pray that I would see him in my dreams some time.
Apart from being a cyber-stalker, I am a typical nerdy college student. I take 15-18 credits every semester, work in a research lab, eat unhealthily and don't really have a social life. Among the few people I know in college is Matt, a fellow classmate I met in my freshman year.
"What's up, Candy?" Matt greeted me as I sat down next to him in class.
"Nothing much," I replied, putting both of my hands on my forehead.
Matt's smile turned into a frown, "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I just went to bed a bit late last night"
"What were you doing? We don't have anything due today!"
Matt knows I always do everything last minute.
"Stalking that guy," I said with a sigh.
"Not again, Candy! That's so unhealthy!"
And that's the kind of reaction I always get from Matt, except that he seems serious this time. I don't want him to think that I'm crazy or out of control, so I tried to defend myself.
"What's the difference between a 'real' relationship and the kind that I'm in? Real relationships are unhealthy to me. You have to set aside time for each other. You can't be late or forget that you're supposed to go on a date. You fight and have to try to get along with your girlfriend." I pause. Matt looks at me with disbelief.
I smile at myself in the mirror. But it sounds so wrong. Am I that pathetic?
I am a senior in college. People say I'm not ugly, but a nerd. I have never even had a boyfriend before and I have been cyber stalking this guy since sophomore year.
What makes me attracted to this person is still a mystery to me. I haven't seen him in person since eighth grade, and he's a a fat computer nerd at a prestigious school in the Midwest.
Me? I'm an enginerd at a state school in the mountains. I love the Rockies and could not imagine living where else.
Before I go to bed every night, I would check my Facebook, his and my instant messenger to see whether he is online. I usually only chat with him two-three times at the most each week. I don't want him to be too suspicious, although I really want to just chat with him every single time I see him online. Then, I would go to bed and pray that I would see him in my dreams some time.
Apart from being a cyber-stalker, I am a typical nerdy college student. I take 15-18 credits every semester, work in a research lab, eat unhealthily and don't really have a social life. Among the few people I know in college is Matt, a fellow classmate I met in my freshman year.
"What's up, Candy?" Matt greeted me as I sat down next to him in class.
"Nothing much," I replied, putting both of my hands on my forehead.
Matt's smile turned into a frown, "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I just went to bed a bit late last night"
"What were you doing? We don't have anything due today!"
Matt knows I always do everything last minute.
"Stalking that guy," I said with a sigh.
"Not again, Candy! That's so unhealthy!"
And that's the kind of reaction I always get from Matt, except that he seems serious this time. I don't want him to think that I'm crazy or out of control, so I tried to defend myself.
"What's the difference between a 'real' relationship and the kind that I'm in? Real relationships are unhealthy to me. You have to set aside time for each other. You can't be late or forget that you're supposed to go on a date. You fight and have to try to get along with your girlfriend." I pause. Matt looks at me with disbelief.
