A request for another page, now things are really getting interesting.
I'm miserable, but it's comfortable. What does that mean? It means that I'm comfortable being miserable. Feeling the way I do has become the normal that I can live with it everyday. Problems arise for me when I actually start to feel happier. When I start to feel happy, I feel like something has changed, therefore I'll do everything and anything necessary to get back to the way things were. Now one may just read that and call me an idiot, but that is the way my mind works. And I'm okay with the way things are. I may be miserable, but I'm okay, I'm still able to function on a daily basis and I enjoy my days, I have fun. Even though I know I probably could be happier, I should be happy with the way things are because like I said on an earlier page, I should be more grateful of the things I have because there are those who have it worse. But writing here helps! And people requesting new pages makes me feel like someone actually wants to read these. Ha!
Have you ever typed a word too much or said a word too much that it starts to look or sound weird? That just happened to me with the word happy. It just looks weird now. Happy. H-a-p-p-y. Even saying it out loud it sounds weird. Happy. It's funny. I like it when that happens though because if you think about the amount of words we say or type in a given day, it never hits us, but when we concentrate on one word, and say it or type it more than usual, it begins to sound weird or look weird.
Classes end in less than two months and I already have a seasonal job lined up for this winter. If it isn't class, then it's work, or as in my situation right now, BOTH!
“The soul is born old but grows young. That is the comedy of life. And the body is born young and grows old. That is life's tragedy.” - Oscar Wilde
I'm miserable, but it's comfortable. What does that mean? It means that I'm comfortable being miserable. Feeling the way I do has become the normal that I can live with it everyday. Problems arise for me when I actually start to feel happier. When I start to feel happy, I feel like something has changed, therefore I'll do everything and anything necessary to get back to the way things were. Now one may just read that and call me an idiot, but that is the way my mind works. And I'm okay with the way things are. I may be miserable, but I'm okay, I'm still able to function on a daily basis and I enjoy my days, I have fun. Even though I know I probably could be happier, I should be happy with the way things are because like I said on an earlier page, I should be more grateful of the things I have because there are those who have it worse. But writing here helps! And people requesting new pages makes me feel like someone actually wants to read these. Ha!
Have you ever typed a word too much or said a word too much that it starts to look or sound weird? That just happened to me with the word happy. It just looks weird now. Happy. H-a-p-p-y. Even saying it out loud it sounds weird. Happy. It's funny. I like it when that happens though because if you think about the amount of words we say or type in a given day, it never hits us, but when we concentrate on one word, and say it or type it more than usual, it begins to sound weird or look weird.
Classes end in less than two months and I already have a seasonal job lined up for this winter. If it isn't class, then it's work, or as in my situation right now, BOTH!
“The soul is born old but grows young. That is the comedy of life. And the body is born young and grows old. That is life's tragedy.” - Oscar Wilde
