i must not. I know it's not something i could change, was it not? My need, sucking me in. She had control, but even she knew, what is lost cannot be found.

Why do you hurt me so? It is your fault.

Numbness surrounds, feeling the utter collapse of body. Although completely independent of body, feeling nothing and everything. Was this what i had done? Fro this i cannot be accountable. Please. I can't, you know i can't . The edge of the mind is certainly unclear, although this seemed to be a huge emotional ravine in my mind - from which there was no return, trapped in the state of life and death. i hadn't chosen this. I did not wish it upon anyone.

Your Fault.

Trapped, I had caused this. Trapping her through neglect, ultimately trapping myself in the spiral of guilt. Through which many a soul brings themselves to death, but what is death without non-existence. Why am I stuck. This can not be permanent. It Was My Fault. Guilt has consumed me. Through which all feeling is lost. Living in-between those who wish to die and those who wish they hadn't wished so hard. Floating with nothing. Not suspended. Just stuck. Numb. Dull. Blank