BUT! there's the fact that if I got to know him more.. Maybe I could start to like him and have an awesome relationship with him.. The unknown sucks. Couldn't there just be a crystal ball that comes with life when your born? Telling you every once in a while what to expect next? Wouldn't that be awesome? But it couldn't be too often.. Because life would become pointless again... I think the whole reason I wanna hook-up with Tyler so bad is partially do to peer pressure. About a week ago I was hanging out with Brock (Tyler's best friend who often stays with him because he lives far away but goes to our school) Riley, One of my best friends, and Tyler. So as we are walking Brock some how brings up this big secret about Tyler. And of course I'm the only one who doesn't know about it. But Tyler got so mad that Brock told RIley, that if he were to tell anyone else.. That Brock would owe Tyler more liquid sunshines (a delicious but expensive smoothie). So Brock not wanting to pay of course he didn't tell me. Awesome right? NO. I was dying. I wanted to know what it was about so badly. But thank goodness a few days later.. I found out from riley. Apparently Tyler had hooked up with this girl named Mackenzie, who is notorious for hooking up with guys. But luckily this had happened a while ago and he regretted it a lot. Yay! This may sound weird.. But knowing that he regretted it and that he was into just hooking up randomly..(That makes him sound bad) I mean hooking up when he's with a girl who can give him direction and he'll follow (that's a bit better...) kinda gave me some comfort. Some hope if you will. That maybe some day, I could be that girl (OH MY GOSH I AM SORRY I SOUND LIKE A WHORE BUT BELIEVE ME IF YOU WERE UNDER MY CIRCUMSTANCES YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND (HOPEFULLY)). But if that day were to come.. Lets hope I could give him direction.. It might be hard since I have never been kissed before.. and making out with him might be a bit of a stretch. By the way I am going to apologize for my horrible grammar and lack of paragraph breaks. Anyway this is where I stand. I currently have a boyfriend who I barely know anything about and seems a bit immature. Then I have Tyler who I have a huge crush on and would give Ryan up for any hug of his. What to do, what to do..