For SO LONG I haven't felt anything shake me to my core, I've had a strong, thick, seemingly impenetrable force around my heart and soul that has physically manifested in my being, and just in this moment it was broken for the first time in years. I can feel with my soul again. My entire existence is standing at attention, focused on the world, and I feel like I can connect to this physical reality again.
My life just changed.
Just now.
I can't even describe the amount of feeling that just crossed that threshold that I was unsure would ever be crossed in my life again. I thought I had brain damage, or was an emotional cripple-- that maybe I had some suppressed memory or something unbelievable that I was beating down and covering with a tarp in the back storage unit of my head, or heart, or soul. Either I just let it go or realized it wasn't even there to begin with.
But it's gone, and I can breathe easy again.
I don't even want to say "again" because I don't think I've ever felt this way truthfully before.
I have a new sense of accountability and purpose that has just hit me. I exist in this world just as much as everybody else and I have a duty and right to this world just as much as everyone else.
And I am an open and loving creature with infinite potential in any way I choose.
I want to explore with this new body and sense of rightness.

You, whoever you are, thank you for being the witness to a turning point in my life.
Something I have been waiting for and had given up hope on ever getting back.
Ever getting, period.

I live. I am a living creature.
I feel it now.
My soul is staring through my eyes, feeling through my fingertips, hearing through my ears, tasting through my mouth, smelling through my nose. Instead of hiding in the back of my head trying to shield itself from physical reality.
I am a human being. I am a human being. I am a human being. I am so unfamiliar with this feeling.