05/04/10
How come he texts her? how come he does this to me?!?! After I almost dumped him. He begged me to take him back. He pleaded and begged. "I love you, honey. I'm your naked boy remember? I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I need you in my life. I can change, I can be better." Pretty persuasive. And add a boucet of flowers and boom i'm all his again. That weekend he went to McCall with his friend and his family. I found out that he was texting Jeneva for a party. Really? Texting Jeneva for a party? he says "it was just for a party" well I say I don't give a flying fuck cuz she wants his dick. Strait up. The girl is obsessed. And I hate it. I cant handel it anymore. She got a face book and put on it "I got this face book JUST for a boy I really like :) Pretty sure that says it all. He can't even be mean to her. After he hurt me once and begs me to take him back, he goes and does that? He thought I wouldn't find out. How many times has he thought that and its been true? What am I supposed to do here?! I feel like I need to break it off. I am a gorgeous, loving, smart, fun girl. I deserve better then this, don't I? What is wrong with me? Am I jealous for nothing? Is it ok that they are always texting? (By the way, Jeneva is his ex girlfriend) She told him she thought I was pretty. Well guess what? You are fat and ugly and a homewrecker. What is that? I dont get it. I think she is an ugly pig and I want to kill her, frankly. But I don't and won't do shit like that. I really could settle to hit her in the face and call her a little cunt and make her cry. That would be pretty satisfying. But then I would be the bad guy huh. Seriously. I hate this. I have to constantly live with this worry. Tell me this, If you were a guy and this girl wanted you SO SO bad and always texted you and shit, and you knew she wanted you, would you really go get drunk with her? How about if you just begged your girlfriend to take your sorry ass back? It doesn't make sense. Right now I feel like I want to go on vacation and never come back. I want to get away from all the stress. Should I really have to deal with this? Should I really have to push the worry into the back of my head? I don't know. These are questions that will never seem to have the answers. I'm going to run til I can't move my legs.
How come he texts her? how come he does this to me?!?! After I almost dumped him. He begged me to take him back. He pleaded and begged. "I love you, honey. I'm your naked boy remember? I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I need you in my life. I can change, I can be better." Pretty persuasive. And add a boucet of flowers and boom i'm all his again. That weekend he went to McCall with his friend and his family. I found out that he was texting Jeneva for a party. Really? Texting Jeneva for a party? he says "it was just for a party" well I say I don't give a flying fuck cuz she wants his dick. Strait up. The girl is obsessed. And I hate it. I cant handel it anymore. She got a face book and put on it "I got this face book JUST for a boy I really like :) Pretty sure that says it all. He can't even be mean to her. After he hurt me once and begs me to take him back, he goes and does that? He thought I wouldn't find out. How many times has he thought that and its been true? What am I supposed to do here?! I feel like I need to break it off. I am a gorgeous, loving, smart, fun girl. I deserve better then this, don't I? What is wrong with me? Am I jealous for nothing? Is it ok that they are always texting? (By the way, Jeneva is his ex girlfriend) She told him she thought I was pretty. Well guess what? You are fat and ugly and a homewrecker. What is that? I dont get it. I think she is an ugly pig and I want to kill her, frankly. But I don't and won't do shit like that. I really could settle to hit her in the face and call her a little cunt and make her cry. That would be pretty satisfying. But then I would be the bad guy huh. Seriously. I hate this. I have to constantly live with this worry. Tell me this, If you were a guy and this girl wanted you SO SO bad and always texted you and shit, and you knew she wanted you, would you really go get drunk with her? How about if you just begged your girlfriend to take your sorry ass back? It doesn't make sense. Right now I feel like I want to go on vacation and never come back. I want to get away from all the stress. Should I really have to deal with this? Should I really have to push the worry into the back of my head? I don't know. These are questions that will never seem to have the answers. I'm going to run til I can't move my legs.
