March 4th, 2013
I always regret not bringing this notebook to school because I'm the type of person who likes stories when they're collected in one place and when i have nothing to collect them in they end up scattered throughout my half-written Physics notes. I really should pay attention in that class but the ADD and abundance of foreign formulas make it difficult to focus sometimes. Most of the time. And I know that if I don't write it as I think it, it won't ever get written because I will either forget the lines or it's more likely that I simply won't be motivated to write them later. And then I'll have forgotten the lines by the time I do want to write them down and regrets really suck, you know. I hate thoughts that float forever because they're too high for me to pull down.
Naturally now that I have brought my notebook I really have nothing to write and that's kind of annoying. But they tell me that I should be writing every day if I want to master the art of black-ink blood on yellowish paper and I do want to master it because that's a really romantic image. They also tell me that you need at least 10,000 hours of practice to really be good at something and sometimes I wonder how many hours I have but I'm very bad when it comes to keeping track of numbers over long periods of time or any periods of time at all. Based on the shame I feel whenever I read something I wrote a week or so after it's been written I guess that I probably don't have enough hours, like I'm definitely not even close to 10,000. And it's probably because I don't write every day, even though they tell me I should. I don't write every day unless you count the notes I take in Physics and like I said before sometimes I don't even do that because of the ADD and the strange Greek letters that are apparently supposed to be numbers. I still don't know what an epsilon is.
I always regret not bringing this notebook to school because I'm the type of person who likes stories when they're collected in one place and when i have nothing to collect them in they end up scattered throughout my half-written Physics notes. I really should pay attention in that class but the ADD and abundance of foreign formulas make it difficult to focus sometimes. Most of the time. And I know that if I don't write it as I think it, it won't ever get written because I will either forget the lines or it's more likely that I simply won't be motivated to write them later. And then I'll have forgotten the lines by the time I do want to write them down and regrets really suck, you know. I hate thoughts that float forever because they're too high for me to pull down.
Naturally now that I have brought my notebook I really have nothing to write and that's kind of annoying. But they tell me that I should be writing every day if I want to master the art of black-ink blood on yellowish paper and I do want to master it because that's a really romantic image. They also tell me that you need at least 10,000 hours of practice to really be good at something and sometimes I wonder how many hours I have but I'm very bad when it comes to keeping track of numbers over long periods of time or any periods of time at all. Based on the shame I feel whenever I read something I wrote a week or so after it's been written I guess that I probably don't have enough hours, like I'm definitely not even close to 10,000. And it's probably because I don't write every day, even though they tell me I should. I don't write every day unless you count the notes I take in Physics and like I said before sometimes I don't even do that because of the ADD and the strange Greek letters that are apparently supposed to be numbers. I still don't know what an epsilon is.
