Hey all, I know it's been awhile since I've posted, but heres my final update...
I hope this sheds some light on the taboo subjects of life, love, insanity, sex, and suicide.
- Anelephantastic!
Its hard to imagine how things got to this, a couple of years and this is what it has all boiled down to. Shay and I weren't talking anymore, apart from a really beautiful blownup text battle. Dallas' car was destroyed. Shane, Alana and Berto have become a stereotypical love triangle. Sal and I broke up, twice. Ive had to deal with random boys. Lucas, David, Mitch. A constant fight for fidelity. But now I'm now dating Tommas. Tommas is smoking, yes, figuratively and literally. He's amazing. I am smoking, just literally. My pact with Dallas was broken. Jeffery was on the other side of the world, again, 3 years of staying in contact has paid off each summer. James was in Texas. My brother was in the hospital. My mother was in the hospital. I've had sex, but my parents don't know, they are half expecting me to be a virgin until im married or join a convent. My dad has his fingers crossed for the latter, but I find it hard to see myself dressed in an only black and white outfit that covered my ankles.
I feel bad for not telling them, but i cant really say much without making everything completely awkward. Parent- child relationships are on a need to know basis. Which sometimes isn't very great because my mom and I used to be really close and would tell eachother everything. I've begun to question a lot about my life and sexuality. My bestfriends are all seperated. Rena at school in Pittsburg, Lisa in germany with her mom, and Aliza, though here in good ol' Vancouver, really isn't all that here. If you know what I'm saying. Poor little Aliza has a ton going on with her family, and its taking a toll on her relationship with reality. My "best friends" dismissed my existance the day i left STA and transferred to Sentinel. My grades have remained a constant average of 78 percent. great. Audrey may or may not have been raped. I know, a little sensative on the topic, but its another story that must be told. Grad was rediculously weird. My highschool life has transitioned into a college life, and the sad truth is that is it basically all the same. People have not matured much, their immature social circles have disintegrated allowing room for some peer-pressure free conversing with others, like me, who were originally "uncool" in highschool. All outsiders unappreciated in highschool because they were dismissed as "too different" now have that chance to be recognized for their talents.
I hope this sheds some light on the taboo subjects of life, love, insanity, sex, and suicide.
- Anelephantastic!
Its hard to imagine how things got to this, a couple of years and this is what it has all boiled down to. Shay and I weren't talking anymore, apart from a really beautiful blownup text battle. Dallas' car was destroyed. Shane, Alana and Berto have become a stereotypical love triangle. Sal and I broke up, twice. Ive had to deal with random boys. Lucas, David, Mitch. A constant fight for fidelity. But now I'm now dating Tommas. Tommas is smoking, yes, figuratively and literally. He's amazing. I am smoking, just literally. My pact with Dallas was broken. Jeffery was on the other side of the world, again, 3 years of staying in contact has paid off each summer. James was in Texas. My brother was in the hospital. My mother was in the hospital. I've had sex, but my parents don't know, they are half expecting me to be a virgin until im married or join a convent. My dad has his fingers crossed for the latter, but I find it hard to see myself dressed in an only black and white outfit that covered my ankles.
I feel bad for not telling them, but i cant really say much without making everything completely awkward. Parent- child relationships are on a need to know basis. Which sometimes isn't very great because my mom and I used to be really close and would tell eachother everything. I've begun to question a lot about my life and sexuality. My bestfriends are all seperated. Rena at school in Pittsburg, Lisa in germany with her mom, and Aliza, though here in good ol' Vancouver, really isn't all that here. If you know what I'm saying. Poor little Aliza has a ton going on with her family, and its taking a toll on her relationship with reality. My "best friends" dismissed my existance the day i left STA and transferred to Sentinel. My grades have remained a constant average of 78 percent. great. Audrey may or may not have been raped. I know, a little sensative on the topic, but its another story that must be told. Grad was rediculously weird. My highschool life has transitioned into a college life, and the sad truth is that is it basically all the same. People have not matured much, their immature social circles have disintegrated allowing room for some peer-pressure free conversing with others, like me, who were originally "uncool" in highschool. All outsiders unappreciated in highschool because they were dismissed as "too different" now have that chance to be recognized for their talents.
