All I ask is to fall in love. Just once. I even sometimes try to bargain with God, though I know it will get me nowhere. What is it about some people that can fall in love endlessly? You know what I mean. Those girls who date a guy for three years, break up, and the next weekend they're dating the new 'love of their life'. I just don't get it. When I meet a guy, I'm smitten for two weeks maximum and then I'm doing anything in my power to convince myself and my friends that he's not right for me. Like my last boyfriend, R, for instance. We went on four picture-perfect dates. Movie. Dinner. Dinner. Arcade. One night, during our third week of dating, he slept over. And, don't get me wrong, all we did was sleep. The next morning after a series of shenanigans including him arguing with my roommate and us retrieving his Mercedes from the towing company, I kissed him goodbye. After turning the deadbolt on my front door, I knew. This had to be sabotaged. I stood there, with my back and palms against the door, breathing heavily, my mind racing. I mean, come on, there has to be something wrong with that. I tell myself that's it's just because I 'haven't met the right person', all the while knowing that there is something inherently wrong with me. I guess you're probably wondering how old I am. I'm sure you're thinking, 'well, they went on an arcade date, she couldn't be more than 17'. Thanks for the thought, but I'm 20, almost graduated from COLLEGE. I'm spending tonight Googling 'How to Fall in Love' and 'Intimacy Issues' because this time I'm determined to succeed...