im at the end of my rope. Its like when someone lights a fire under your ass, and you feel the heat, but you cant get away because youre climbing the rope and its on fire under you. Youre fucked. Thats what I am. I got myself to the point where uncertainty is the only thing that I think about, and to be honest, its easier to assume that trends continue and that I won't be able to control myself and end up a failure. I need discipline.