Every day literally gets better and better for me. There are moments in the day where I feel vulnerable and I sometimes think that it would just be easier to be sad and low. The struggle is to stay positive. Its just too easy to be sad and I want to challenge myself. So lately I've been happy and it just gets better and better every day. You could ask me a week ago or even a month ago and I would say the same thing, "Things just keep getting better. Its a struggle but thats what keeps things interesting." Stay positive. Stand tall. Keep smiling and act on fucking impulse. Life is way to fucking short to be sad, angry, mad, lonely or paranoid.
Today started out easy and I was very happy without having to make much of an effort. Now I am feeling the pull back to insanity but I am in control and I own it. Mindfullness is a great help:
Think now, breathe now feel now
Inch up through my diaphragm and out
I can feel it in and on my toes
shins, knees, thighs
my clit, ass and back
Through my fingers and up to my elbows
Tickles my stomach
caresses my breasts
and enters my neck
It moves its way to the back
and exits through the top of my head.
(Fall 2010)