MY NAME IS NICHOLE CLEMONS AND I HAVE A STORY TO TELL ... I WAS ABUSED AS A CHILD AND I'M STILL TRYING TO HEAL ... I HOPE BY WRITING THIS , I WILL SOMEHOW BE RELEASING THIS OUT OF MY SOUL AND MAYBE SOMEONE WILL HEAR THE CRY'S OF OTHERS THAT WERE JUST LIKE ME ...

OH MY GOODNESS I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE ... ( SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS ) GOD PLEASE HELP ME I JUST CANT DO THIS ... LORD I NEED TO SEE YOU ... WHERE ARE YOU ? WHERE ARE YOU LORD ??? SHOW ME YOU ! I NEED TO SEE YOU NOW !!!
AND RIGHT AFTER I SAID THAT, THE PHONE RINGS .. .SO I PICK UP THE PHONE , ITS MY AUNT ... SO I'M LIKE OK ... THINKING TO MYSELF I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH HER NOT TO LONG AGO ... SHE IS SUCH A SPIRITUAL WOMAN ... I DO TRULY VALUE HER ...
SHE SAID NICHOLE ... I WANT YOU TO READ THIS VERSE AND THAT VERSE , AND I WANT YOU TO PRAY ... TELL GOD WHAT YOU NEED ! AND ASK HIM FOR EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT ... HE SAID TO DO IT ... BUT YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE , I WANT YOU TO FAST AND PRAY ABOUT WHAT YOUR GOING TO DO ... YOU NEED TO LET GO OF YOUR PAST HURTS AND FAILURES , AND THE PEOPLE WHO FAILED YOU ... LIKE YOUR MOTHER WHO GAVE YOU UP AND YOUR FATHER WHO WAS NOT MAN ENOUGH TO TAKE CARE OF YOU ... THE ADOPTED MOTHER WHO ABUSED YOU THE MEN IN YOUR LIFE WHO USED AND ABUSED YOU ... EVERY SINGLE PERSON WHO LET YOU DOWN ... YOU JUST HAVE TO GIVE IT ALL TO GOD ... AFTER SHE FINISHED I JUST STARTED TO BREAK DOWN INTO TEARS ... NICHOLE ?! NICHOLE ?! I COULD NOT SPEAK OR HARDLY BREATHE MY WHOLE BODY FELT WARM ALL OVER BUT SO COLD AT THE SAME TIME ... I JUST KEPT CRYING BECAUSE IT STILL HURT ... I DIDN'T KNOW IT COULD, A 35 YEAR OLD WOMAN NOW ... HOW WOULD IT ANYWAY