This is the second night in a row that I've cried because of this fucken place. When will this get better? When the best year of my life going to become what the title entails? I was so fucken lost and I'm in a country where nobody speaks my language, and when I finally get home and want only to be welcomed with relief, I get "you're mother would not approve of this, where have you been until now?" What the fuck do you mean, where have I been? I told you that, I've been lost and doing nothing but crying my eyes in a town that I know isn't where I live, but in my eyes looks exactly the same. What the fuck do you mean where have I been? I've never been so fucken scared in my life, and that's what you have to say to me? How can those words leave your lips when the tears are already running down my face because the shit's already been scared out of me? I've been yelled at before, I can handle that quite well. But when you have the nerve to be such a fucken senseless asshole to me when I'm this scared, I can only hate you. I really am beginning to hate this place. This exchange is doing nothing to show me other cultures, because I honestly cannot say that there is much about German culture that I do like. I really kind of fucken hate this place, and I have ten more months to squander. I miss Amerika and I hate to say it, but I miss fucked up old Oneida, New York too. oh fucken well. maybe it will get better for me after all, but fuck if I know!!!!!