After 20 months of seeing MN and her family it has finally come to a screeching halt. I learned some good lessons. Do not ever get close to someones child that you are dating. Or their dog for that matter. It becomes such a sad situation when you can no longer see that child. Or the dog. I have a feeling for the child it is also very sad and confusing. I am so very sorry Malia for any pain I have caused you and your family.
Starting today it is a whole new world for me. I must realize that if a person has no feelings for me then it is time to move on right away. One way love is really just a fantasy. Never really knew what that meant till just recently. Looking back at these last 20 months I guess it was one of life's lessons being taught to me. Even at my age you never stop learning. I have decided to keep my spirits up and realize that I am a good person and someone someday will enter my life and make me happy.
This week also is when I will be meeting my ex to discuss what we will be doing from this point on. I do know I am still married. Somehow after 10 years of no communication, intimacy or any kind of affection at all, as well as almost 3 years of physical separation she has become an ex in my heart. Such a sad thing for someone you have known in your life for close to 30 years and married for 27 of those.
Saw a show on television last night that was about a mother leaving her 2 daughters and son for over 6 years. She blames her self for the separation. Mentioning that she had become so immersed in her children that she forgot all about her husband. Her husband took that loss of affection and and found himself someone else to love. I just persevered until my ex one day left and took my sons. I guess everyone's story is both the same and a little different.
It is 6:37am here in Honolulu. The sun has risen and I feel like today is going to be a beautiful day. LL
Starting today it is a whole new world for me. I must realize that if a person has no feelings for me then it is time to move on right away. One way love is really just a fantasy. Never really knew what that meant till just recently. Looking back at these last 20 months I guess it was one of life's lessons being taught to me. Even at my age you never stop learning. I have decided to keep my spirits up and realize that I am a good person and someone someday will enter my life and make me happy.
This week also is when I will be meeting my ex to discuss what we will be doing from this point on. I do know I am still married. Somehow after 10 years of no communication, intimacy or any kind of affection at all, as well as almost 3 years of physical separation she has become an ex in my heart. Such a sad thing for someone you have known in your life for close to 30 years and married for 27 of those.
Saw a show on television last night that was about a mother leaving her 2 daughters and son for over 6 years. She blames her self for the separation. Mentioning that she had become so immersed in her children that she forgot all about her husband. Her husband took that loss of affection and and found himself someone else to love. I just persevered until my ex one day left and took my sons. I guess everyone's story is both the same and a little different.
It is 6:37am here in Honolulu. The sun has risen and I feel like today is going to be a beautiful day. LL
