It now was all so clear, well as clear as it could be. Life and death were just as equally important in the processes that kept Marshall going throughout his daily life. That's at least what he thought, he didn't even know what it meant, truth be told, only that it made him feel comfortable NOW. Which is important, and something that he had been looking for for awhile. Most of Marshalls' alone time was spent sitting in a brown chair in the corner of his living room reading something, it didn't matter if it was a book, website or simply the subtitles on the tv with the sound turned down. He just wanted to engage himself. But today he had decided that reading just didn't cut it, he needed to simply stare, open his mind up to the universe. It would speak to him, as it occasionally did, but it only happened in these rare moments, moments he had learned to detect as of late. Sitting in his chair he let his eyes close, then slowly open and close depending on if the lids felt like letting light in or not, but he didn't pay much attention to that information then for it to make any real difference. That's when it came though, if there was death there had to be life, and visa versa. By dying at some point he will strengthen the very foundations that make up life as well know it, and by living he does the same for death. It is not some evil final destination monster that is hungry, it can wait for it's fill is coming at some point or another. If anything the monster is life which pops up at every-which place and fights off death. He was comfortable with death, but also comfortable with life. He thought if he died he would be "ok" with things. This was not true, there was much to life yet he had not discovered, but this in itself is a virtue that needed to be discovered, as time progresses, the wisdom will come. Of course, if he had to make a choice, life was the obvious answer, Marshall was not one to be easily upset, if anything he didn't really feel anything most of the time, something about himself he wished to change. But alas there is no changing what is not meant to be changed, Marshall will never change in that aspect, and he will not be upset with this, as per his nature.