11-29-10 (monday)
I felt sick this morning, not like a "I'm sick of my life" sick, but a legitimate ill feeling. My head hurt, my eyes hurt, and I felt quite nauseous. No, I was not hungover. I reluctantly went to early bird gym under instructions not to go to the nurse or call my mom because she "would under no circumstances be taking me home today". I threw up in the gym bathroom. Kind of disgusting. Anywho, the rest of the day was rather uneventful. We learned about efficiency in AP Physics B, I hung out with D-man (my very cool Physics teacher) both 7th and 9th, Gingersnap looks terrible with his new haircut, well, as terrible as a 6'2" runner-with perfect bone structure and a perfect body to match-can look. I talked to SweaterBoy multiple times. I don't know if I actually like him, but I think he's really cute, and nice, and smart, and I like him as a person the few times we've talked. And that sweater, oh damn that sweater. It's so attractive, and he's so attractive. As weird as it sounds, I like his personality when he's under the influence and shit-showing. I find it somewhat charming. I like how he talks when he asks for gum, or just makes a small comment to me. Okay, I like him. But I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me. Or maybe he's just shy? I'm just taking it day by day.
I'm not even mad at Gingersnap. I'm just slightly pissed off that he hooked up with her. The thing is, I had already decided that I was done hooking up with him by the time I found out. Plus, they only hooked up once. And it was when they were drunk. And he said he regrets it, that might be the worst part, though. That he told me he regrets hooking up with her. And telling me that she was a mistake, even though they've hooked up before. He knows she likes him, and he knows he can have her whenever he wants. I almost feel like he took advantage of her, not physically, but emotionally. The Gingersnap shouldn't regret anything, because regret doesn't do anything but make everyone involved feel like shit. Ugh and the look on her face today. How can she still be all over him? I just don't get it. I don't even care, it's just confusing and annoying. I'm just going to try to not let it bother me and take life day-by-day.
Countdown 'til I hear about the school of my dreams: 16 days
I felt sick this morning, not like a "I'm sick of my life" sick, but a legitimate ill feeling. My head hurt, my eyes hurt, and I felt quite nauseous. No, I was not hungover. I reluctantly went to early bird gym under instructions not to go to the nurse or call my mom because she "would under no circumstances be taking me home today". I threw up in the gym bathroom. Kind of disgusting. Anywho, the rest of the day was rather uneventful. We learned about efficiency in AP Physics B, I hung out with D-man (my very cool Physics teacher) both 7th and 9th, Gingersnap looks terrible with his new haircut, well, as terrible as a 6'2" runner-with perfect bone structure and a perfect body to match-can look. I talked to SweaterBoy multiple times. I don't know if I actually like him, but I think he's really cute, and nice, and smart, and I like him as a person the few times we've talked. And that sweater, oh damn that sweater. It's so attractive, and he's so attractive. As weird as it sounds, I like his personality when he's under the influence and shit-showing. I find it somewhat charming. I like how he talks when he asks for gum, or just makes a small comment to me. Okay, I like him. But I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me. Or maybe he's just shy? I'm just taking it day by day.
I'm not even mad at Gingersnap. I'm just slightly pissed off that he hooked up with her. The thing is, I had already decided that I was done hooking up with him by the time I found out. Plus, they only hooked up once. And it was when they were drunk. And he said he regrets it, that might be the worst part, though. That he told me he regrets hooking up with her. And telling me that she was a mistake, even though they've hooked up before. He knows she likes him, and he knows he can have her whenever he wants. I almost feel like he took advantage of her, not physically, but emotionally. The Gingersnap shouldn't regret anything, because regret doesn't do anything but make everyone involved feel like shit. Ugh and the look on her face today. How can she still be all over him? I just don't get it. I don't even care, it's just confusing and annoying. I'm just going to try to not let it bother me and take life day-by-day.
Countdown 'til I hear about the school of my dreams: 16 days
