What if this was it? What if this was the day that would change my life forever? No, I wasn't sure, I don't even know for sure if my mind even completely believed this moment would actually mean what my heart aspired it to. But I did know that I sure as hell wasn't going to let my parents get in the way of me finding out. Not this time!
The curtains opened and my heart froze. My mind went blank. All of my lines were all of a sudden lost. Then I looked into the audience and saw all of those people. All the smiling faces waiting to witness the talented girl for the first time in an actual play. Everything came back. I felt a feeling of freedom and security. Knowing that I may never get the opportunity to experience these emotions again, I had no choice but to shine! And shine, I did.
When the play was over, one by one, the diretor, Mr. Shasze, introduced the cast to the audience. One by one, everyone's name was being called. But not mine. Everyonoe's name had been called except mine when I heard Mr. Shasze go on talking about something that I couldn't quite make out. Then he called me. " Please welcome Miss Breeshae "Holly" Washington!" I walked onto the stage and was immediatly brought to tears. The entire audience presented me with a standing ovation! My heart was thumping so hard and fast that I was forced to hold it, in fear that it would surely fly out any second. Then, like all great moments do, this heart thumping moment was rudley interupted by the image of my mother by the back door with her fingers crossed and mouth muscles tight, along with my step father whose facial expression is always difficult to read.
The ride home was quiet. Damn! Quiet wasn't good for this situation. When we got in the house I started to my room praying that my mom's silent tratment would stay in affect.
"Why did you lie?" her voice sounded cold and without feeling. One thing my mom had absolutley 100% zero tolerance for, was lieing. " Damn Bree! I thought we were over this shit! You got me cussin' people out and shit, knowing for sure that they was lieing on you, when all this time yo ass is up on the stage!"
"Ma. don't you understand that I can't be honest with you? Everything that I want for my self, you stand in the way. I'm in 11th grade now and don't take this as disrespect, but I refuse to live a life wondering 'what if' because of you" Her eyes were even colder as she said," Oh yeah? You REFUSE? Well I refuse to--" Once again she was rescued from saying something crazy by her heroe, Deon. I swear, they've been together for almost two years now and I still am creeped out by his presence. He just sort of appears at times like this. " Relax Brenda baby. She's only being a teenager. Relax." Then he turns to me and says," Breeshae," I ignore the obvious fact that he's speaking until," I'm sorry. Holly, you know you're mother's going through a rough time. Try and go easy on her." Then he just walks away! Weirdo. Yea I do know she's going through
The curtains opened and my heart froze. My mind went blank. All of my lines were all of a sudden lost. Then I looked into the audience and saw all of those people. All the smiling faces waiting to witness the talented girl for the first time in an actual play. Everything came back. I felt a feeling of freedom and security. Knowing that I may never get the opportunity to experience these emotions again, I had no choice but to shine! And shine, I did.
When the play was over, one by one, the diretor, Mr. Shasze, introduced the cast to the audience. One by one, everyone's name was being called. But not mine. Everyonoe's name had been called except mine when I heard Mr. Shasze go on talking about something that I couldn't quite make out. Then he called me. " Please welcome Miss Breeshae "Holly" Washington!" I walked onto the stage and was immediatly brought to tears. The entire audience presented me with a standing ovation! My heart was thumping so hard and fast that I was forced to hold it, in fear that it would surely fly out any second. Then, like all great moments do, this heart thumping moment was rudley interupted by the image of my mother by the back door with her fingers crossed and mouth muscles tight, along with my step father whose facial expression is always difficult to read.
The ride home was quiet. Damn! Quiet wasn't good for this situation. When we got in the house I started to my room praying that my mom's silent tratment would stay in affect.
"Why did you lie?" her voice sounded cold and without feeling. One thing my mom had absolutley 100% zero tolerance for, was lieing. " Damn Bree! I thought we were over this shit! You got me cussin' people out and shit, knowing for sure that they was lieing on you, when all this time yo ass is up on the stage!"
"Ma. don't you understand that I can't be honest with you? Everything that I want for my self, you stand in the way. I'm in 11th grade now and don't take this as disrespect, but I refuse to live a life wondering 'what if' because of you" Her eyes were even colder as she said," Oh yeah? You REFUSE? Well I refuse to--" Once again she was rescued from saying something crazy by her heroe, Deon. I swear, they've been together for almost two years now and I still am creeped out by his presence. He just sort of appears at times like this. " Relax Brenda baby. She's only being a teenager. Relax." Then he turns to me and says," Breeshae," I ignore the obvious fact that he's speaking until," I'm sorry. Holly, you know you're mother's going through a rough time. Try and go easy on her." Then he just walks away! Weirdo. Yea I do know she's going through
