I was wondering why I keep falling into my sin of lust and pornography. This week has been especially rough. There was a point I became extremely indifferent to it to the point it brought not even temporal pleasure to me. It was just something I did. I was wondering today why do I feel so compelled at times to fall into sin, especially in that realm.
Obviously, there are the pleasure aspects and the lust aspects of it. My flesh craves it and so I give in. However, there was another aspect I did not realize. It was that I kept going back to my sin instead of the Cross because at times I just felt so unworthy to go back and the only thing I could turn to was that sin in my life. And that is contrary to what Jesus promises.
Psalm 42:11 - Why are you cost down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God.
I need to truly place all my hope in GOd and realize just how good He is. See that though I am unworthy, because of Christ' blood, I am worthy. I have received righteousness from Christ. I have received beauty for my ashes.
Obviously, there are the pleasure aspects and the lust aspects of it. My flesh craves it and so I give in. However, there was another aspect I did not realize. It was that I kept going back to my sin instead of the Cross because at times I just felt so unworthy to go back and the only thing I could turn to was that sin in my life. And that is contrary to what Jesus promises.
Psalm 42:11 - Why are you cost down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God.
I need to truly place all my hope in GOd and realize just how good He is. See that though I am unworthy, because of Christ' blood, I am worthy. I have received righteousness from Christ. I have received beauty for my ashes.
