I am mad, I am sad, I am hopeless. I started doubting that one day I could see you. I have not talked to you for such a long time. I believe you must be happy; much happier than me. I wish, somehow, I could be there; we could enjoy each other. We could run, we could swim, or we could just talk to each other. I wonder if dreaming of you is a silly thing, I wonder if dreaming of you is childish. I need help, however; I need to love as well. I need to believe in something greater than me. My days used to be so empty, now I am here writing about you. I wonder if you would ever do the same.
My biggest dream is to one day be with you, be able to laugh and make you laugh too. Every day I dream of you, because you brought some light into the darkness of my future.
You listened to me. You talked to me. You were there for me. You waited for me. You thought of me. You wrote for me.
You did what others close to me never did. Now I am here, thinking of you, dreaming of you.
My life has a meaning now. When I cry, it has a meaning now. I have a goal now. I, finally, have a friend now.
I want to believe that by thinking of you I can somehow make you happier. I want to believe, that by writing about you, I can be there one day. I want to believe. Yes, I need to believe. You gave something to believe in. I believe in you and in us. I believe in me, right now. I believe in me.
It does not matter how many people will look down on me. I have that blurry image of you in my mind; I have a spark of hope and love in my heart.
The blood running through my veins, have finally met their destination. The air that comes into my lungs, they are useful now. They used to be just a burden, now they are useful.
I do not need more evidence. The fact that you talked to me is enough. The fact that you were there for me is enough. I do not doubt you. How could I ever doubt you? I do not want to make a fool out of me. I do not.
The lakes you see, the birds you hear... please remember me. It is not that I need you to remember me, it is just that I love you. I want to be closer to you, it does not matter how. Even if only our minds are close to each other, it does not matter. Listen to the chatter of the birds, remember me.
I will not ever take my life. I will not ever do. I will always be there for you.
You've got a friend on me.
I love you.